Looks that kill || N.S

Too young to fall in love

Cora's p.o.v
I woke up to a pounding headache which seems to be what I've been waking up to more and more lately. I checked the clock on the night stand that read 5:00 p.m. Damn it really took me this long to wake up? I felt a sudden cold run through my body as I realized that I was in fact being warmed up last night by Nikki. His warm body spooned mine through out the night. All of last nights memories flooded my brain. Nikki had saved me from almost being raped. I smiled as I thought about how he stayed with me to know that I was safe. Although he had left in the morning probably. I should probably get out of bed now. I walked to the restroom and brushed my teeth. Once I was done with that, I took a quick shower. Sobering up by the second. After washing up, I got dressed into some jean shorts, a Guns and roses shirt and my converse. Maybe I should walk next door and thank Nikki for saving and taking care of me. I decided to do just that. I made my way outside of the room and next door to his. I knocked on his door but he didn't answer. I placed my hand on the door knob and apparently it was unlocked. That's weird, he didn't answer but his door was unlocked. Oh god please don't be overdosed and dead on the floor Nikki. I would honestly hate to walk in on something like that. Regardless I opened the door. Nothing. I heard the shower on, he must be in there. "I'm coming Nikki!" A girl moaned from the restroom. Oh my fucking god. He's with someone. I felt immediately disgusted. I heard the shower go off. I should go, I really don't need to see him and his fuck buddy together. I headed for the door when all of a sudden I heard my name being called out by Nikki. "Cora?" He said. Fuck. Perfect timing eh. "Hey Nikki. I was gonna come and talk to you but I see you're busy so I'll come back later." I simply say before my mouth becomes dry at who walked out of the bathroom right behind him. "Oh hey Cora." Priscilla said. "H-hey." I dry swallowed. "Well that was fun. I'll see you later Nik." Cilla says pecking his lips. She turned to look at me and smirked walking out of the room. She could tell I was tense and jealous about what I just saw. I shouldn't be though, Nikki and I are not together. As soon she shut the door, I looked back at Nikki who had a towel wrapped around his hips showing his abdomen. "I came over to thank you for saving me yesterday but here you are having other plans." I said sounding more bitchy than I intended. "Well what can I say? I needed a good fuck right now." He said simply. "You're such a sex fiend, you know that. I don't get what it is that you don't comprehend about 1 guy 1 girl." I replied. "I do know what that is. The thing is I don't want to do that. I'd rather have meaningless sex." Nikki says. "Ha I see that now. You were literally just with me last night and now you're with Cilla fucking her in the shower today." I scoff. "In all honesty I don't need to explain myself to you Cora." He said removing his towel as if nothing. "Nikki, fucking tell me you're getting dressed!" I exclaimed turning around. "It's not like you haven't seen it before." I rolled my eyes and stared up at the ceiling. "I don't get you Nikki Sixx. You say you want me but then you go and do stupid shit which proves the opposite." I say. I heard him pull his zipper up. "Fuck! I don't know what you want me to be." He snapped which made me turn around and face him wearing just his jeans, shirtless. I almost let my guard down at the sight. Fuck why does he have to be so fucking hot. I quickly shook my head and said "I want you to care for me, love me, want me, be faithful to me, just me. Is that so fucking hard!" I yelled back at him.

There stood a small silence between us before he replied. "I'm sorry Cora, I can't be that guy for you. I won't be. And we both know that." Nikki finishes. "Why not?" I said almost a whisper. My voice was becoming inaudible and frail. It all just hurt and you could hear it in my voice. "I just don't believe in love. And I don't want to start by hurting you." He replied sitting on his bed. I looked straight into his eyes and said " you already did. But you know what? You're mr. big shot rock star. You can do whatever the hell you want." I say before walking over to the door. "Cora. Don't leave." Nikki says stopping me. "Let's have a quickie." I could almost feel that smirk on my skin. "Prick." Is all I say before leaving his room and going back into mine. Once I got back in, the tears just sprang free. How could he be so careless? Nikki Sixx is just a self centered asshole. Always has been, he always will be.