Song of the Chapter - Wonder by Shawn Mendes
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14 Months Later
To be honest, I was never a believer in second chances. I used to think that once someone fucked you over, there was no way that you could recover and that you'd be sad for the rest of your life.
That's how I felt when Camila and I broke up. I was so broken that I had no desire to love again because I didn't think I could. But, once again, I was wrong. Here I am, loving Valerie for over a year and I felt as if it couldn't get any better.
We've had our ups, and definitely our downs, but I wouldn't trade it for the world. She is my world. I wake up and live for her. She is the reason I'm here. She is the reason I've been living the best life, something I never thought I'd have.
Not only was today the biggest day of my life, it was also the most scary.
In November, "Wonder" got nominated for Song of the Year at the Grammys. And now, here we are, 3 months later, on our way to the award show.
This was Valerie's first red carpet experience with me and she wouldn't stop raving about how excited she was. Knowing her, I thought she'd be bouncing off the walls with anxiety, but I guess something about Los Angeles made her excited.
We were in the limo that was taking us to the venue and my hand was harshly clutching onto Valerie's. Andrew decided to go all out with everything since it was my first nomination since my mental breakdown before I made the album. I felt bad knowing that everyone was hyping me up for an award I didn't think I would get. I never got my hopes up for these types of things, mostly because I would hate everything if I lost. But today, I felt like something good was going to happen.
"Baby, you're shaking," Valerie said to me. I snapped out of my thoughts and shook my head.
"No I'm not. I'm okay," I told her, but she squeezed my hand tighter.
"I know you're going to win tonight," she whispered under her breath.
A small chuckle escaped my lips. "Yeah, right. I have no chance. Did you see who I'm up against?"
"All these songs that are played too much on the radio? I'm sure you got this in the bag."
The way she continued to hype me up even after my own doubts boosted my own confidence. I thought my confidence was pretty much shot after knowing that my fans would be let down after I lost tonight. Manifesting is hard when you know it actually can't change anything.
The limo pulled up to the red carpet and I looked down at Valerie to make sure she was okay. This was going to be her first time encountering a red carpet and I wanted to do everything in my power to make her feel comfortable, despite my own self-deprecation.
Our driver opened the door, letting me out first. I took Valerie's hand and helped her out of the low car. Her red dress cascaded down her long legs and I practically almost dropped to my knees. She deserved to be on her own carpet and take pictures without me because she was fucking beautiful and deserved to be praised.
As soon as everyone saw us, I heard a bunch of screams from fans, so I rushed over to them and took a few pictures. Valerie stayed behind because she didn't think they wanted pictures with her, but she was insane for thinking that.
"Okay, are you ready?" I asked her right as we approached the beginning of the carpet.
She nodded. "Yeah, I got this."
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