I've passed by many eyes , but I get lost in yours ↻ yoonmin

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Watching Yoongi leave like that is so painful to him. It's like someone is extracting out his soul from his body. He feels lifeless. He doesn't know if his heart can handle so much loss. First his baby and now Yoongi....

Without even thinking about his own condition he gets off the ground. He tries to run after Yoongi not caring about the immense pain that shot in his lower half. He calls out for the older , hoping he'd come back to him but the latter didn't even spare him one look.

He tries his best to hold out, his fingers curling into fists trying to bear the pain but finds himself falling to the ground, gasping for air.

He's breathing but the air just won't go in , like his lungs are surrounded by metal bands. He can't see anything except in the darkness. His body suddenly feels cold. He feels like drowning , drowning into a deep ocean from where it's impossible to return.

He tries his best to stay afloat but after some time he just decides that it's not worth it. It's not worth living after losing his baby and Yoongi. He's better off dead. With that thought in his mind he let the water fill up his lungs , his body feeling heavy as he drowns deeper in the ocean.

" Jimin.."
He heard a faint cry. It sounded like Yoongi but he's sure he's hallucinating.
" Jimin ah."
He hears it again. This time the voice sounded more clear.

" Jimin ah wake up."
The voice booms in his ears and he finally opens his eyes. Gasping for air as the first thing. He feels breathless, his heart is racing at a high speed.

He tries to control his breathing before taking in his surroundings.

He's still in his room , Yoongi looking at him with a worried expression. He still has his baby bump. That means only one thing , it was just a dream. A hell of a nightmare if he says.

" Jimin, you okay ?"
Jimin shakes his head. He's obviously not okay after having a near to death experience.
" W-wa-ter." He speaks with his scorched throat , the burning sensation settling in it.

Yoongi watches him gulp down the glass in one go. Jimin is still terrified from the dream , afraid that it may come true.

Yoongi isn't the best one with this kind of situation, heck he doesn't even know how to calm a shaken up person. But whenever it's about Jimin he feels like a natural. Just like now , he's already rubbing soothing circles in Jimin's back , cradling him back to sleep in his arms.

" You won't leave me right ?"
Jimin asks in between the hiccups , his voice has that desperation , that fear of abandonment.
And even though Yoongi knows he has to leave him , because that was what their contract has decided. He would lie to him. He'd lie to him a million times if that makes him feel better.

" I'll never leave you."
He proceeds to release his calming pheromones into the air , the scent helps the younger to calm down. It reminds him of the alpha's presence , it's enough to make his omega think that whatever the alpha is saying is true.

He lets himself get lured by Alpha's false words , because in some situations it's better to hear the sweet lies than the bitter truth.

" A bad dream ?"
Yoongi voices out his speculation. That way Jimin is holding onto his bump and Yoongi so protectively, it's as clear as water.
Jimin nods his head weakly against Yoongi's chest. His breath rising up and down.

" You wanna talk about it ?" The way Jimin is shaken up right now , he knows he's not ready to talk about it. But sharing it with Yoongi might help him to calm down.

" I lost the b-baby and then you... y-you left me too saying that it was my fault."
Yoongi's calming scent is filled with bitterness. He can't even imagine that happening.

The thought of losing the baby is something that he doesn't want to imagine. It's like there's a special connection between them.

" That would never happen, Jimin ah. See the baby is perfectly fine."
He places his hand on top of Jimin's bump , obtaining a quick kick from the baby.

" Petal, why are you crying ? Everything's fine. Our baby is fine."
'Our baby' these words spill out unintentionally.

" I won't ever leave you okay. I'll stay with you and our baby forever."
At this peak moment Jimin need nothing else than reassurance.

" Our baby will be in our arms soon , happy and healthy."
He cleans the dry stain of tears painted on Jimin's flawless skin.

" Baby is okay ?"
Jimin's voice expresses his fear. Even if Yoongi reassured him , his inner guts won't let the dream slide out easily.

" Baby is okay."
Yoongi leans in closer to him , pressing a soft kiss on top of his head.
" If you want we can go to the hospital tomorrow. Okay ?"

" Okay."
He finally calms down , the sourness in his scent is replaced by its usual sweetness.
" Now try to sleep. Baby and you both need it."
Yoongi buries Jimin's face in his chest. Patting the younger's head he let out little hums. He isn't the best singer but he'd try his best for Jimin.

He continues humming the sweet melody that he remembers his mother singing to him at some point of his childhood. He remembered it instantly calming him down. Just like that Jimin releases his tight grip , his breath stabilizes eventually and he drifts from his conscious state.