MY DAYS WITH YOU

Part 24.1 Desperation

"Don't let desperate situations make you do desperate things." ~Unknown~

"Never underestimate desperate people. You never know how far they will go to get what they want. ~Unknown~

A/N: Sorry, I know a promised longer chapter, but I cannot predict the future. I started my last semester of uni, including my internship, and it is already messing up with my life. On top of that, I sprained my right hand, preventing me from writing much of the time.

Mew and Gulf were still embracing, Gulf was in a daze. Listening to Mew's heart beating next to him. He was savoring this newfound emotion, the feeling of being next to Mew. The sensation of feeling free, to finally admit to himself and anyone else. He is capable of loving someone and for someone to love him.

Gulf was smiling as he noticed Mew's fingers interwoven with his. How they seem perfect with his, just like how he feels right now next to Mew.

Surprisingly, Gulf was calm, just him and Mew. He was afraid to break the silence, afraid to find out that it was all a dream. It was real, he finds out it was really the moment Mew spoke.

"Gulf, how do you feel about all these?" Gulf felt Mew's chest rise and fall as he spoke. Gulf stopped playing with Mew's fingers, his heart now is beating, no from excitement, but from the question's sound. Gulf stood up; he needs to make sure he heard well.

Resting his weight on his left hand. Now, face to face with the man responsible for making his heartbeat out of rhythm.

"What you mean?" Gulf asked, with his face fixed in Mew's dark eyes; he found concern in them, but if he looks closely, he will see the love in Mew's eyes.

Mew turned his whole body to face Gulf. Mew stayed quiet for a few seconds, placing his right hand on Gulf's left cheek. Noticing how Gulf closed his eyes as he caresses him. Gulf tilted his head, the same way a sunflower turned itself toward the sun early in the morning. Seeking the heat, the warmth of Mew's touch.

The surprise of seeing how Gulf reacts to his touch makes Mew soft inside. "Gulf, having you here next to me, accepting the fact that you feel something for me is one of the greatest moments of my life. Still, I cannot allow myself to get blind by this bliss." Gulf cannot understand what Mew was talking about.

Gulf was enraged. "I cannot believe he ruined this special moment with that stupid question." When Gulf was about to say something, Mew continued.

Mew clasped Gulf's hands on his, sensing how Gulf began to shake. "Gulf, as I told you before, there is one thing you should feel sure about. My love for you is real; nothing will ever change the way I feel for you. My love for you was born from the gentle and beautiful interaction between us. It was something none of us plan; for me is a natural feeling. That being said, I still want to make sure you are sure of your feelings for me."

Gulf lowered his face; he was feeling ashamed, not for what happened earlier. He was embarrassed about making Mew suffered. "Mew, I understand how you must be feeling. It was just a few minutes ago I decided to express my feelings for you after battling with them for so long. I am sure of my feelings for you, I am sure how I know there are sunrise and sunsets. After struggling with the idea of loving someone, now I am sure of it." Gulf smiled at Mew, but he noticed how Mew lowered his head and removed his hands from his.

Gulf recognizes the feeling of feeling the emptiness left my Mew. It was a feeling he does not like at all.

"Loving someone, you mean, loving another man? Are you okay with loving another man? Accepting that not everyone will see us in a good way?" Mew stood up; he cannot bear to see Gulf, even worse, to hear the answers to those questions.