Eternal Light | Regulus Black

September 1st 1971

It's time. Sirius will be gone until christmas. Just me and Regulus. My heart aches as the train leaves the station. Oh, what I would do to be in that train. The thought of living at the Grimmauld Place without Sirius suddenly scares me. Regulus notices my anxious form and takes my hand in his.

"We'll be okay," he whispers so Orion and Walburga wouldn't hear. His hand was shaking a little bit so his word's didn't do much to console me. His features were cold and hard unlike his usually warm and kind presence. I nod at him and squeeze his hand.

"We'll be okay," I whisper to myself and exhale.

All of the families that had been by the station started to leave. So many parents that had sent their kids many miles away to a magic school. There were few mothers with tears of joy in their eyes. Fathers who looked so proud to have their children attend one of the best wizarding schools in the world. Orion on the other hand didn't show a single emotion and didn't pay any attention to the wizards and witches that seemed to try and greet him. After all he was a respected wizard. I gazed upon his arrogant stance and felt small. Like I didn't matter at all. Like I wasn't even there. I followed Orion and Walburga with Regulus, our hands were still intertwined. He didn't let go of my hand all of the way to the Black family home and I loved him for that.

November 8th 1971

I had my big winter robe on and boots 2 sizes too big for me. I had leant Sirius's since mine had grown too small. I hadn't dared to ask for new ones. It was gloomy and grey outside. The white snow falling from the sky was the only pure thing in sight. It was the first snow so I made myself go outside despite of spending most of my time in my room recently. I had spent a lot of time with Regulus but mostly he was in his private lessons his mother had forced him on. I remember last year when Mrs Black had Sirius take the lessons that prepared them for Hogwarts. I didn't understand why they had to take lessons to attend Hogwarts when everything we needed to learn we'd learn there. Regulus had explained to me that his parents wanted him and Sirius to be better than the others when starting there. Of course.

The atmosphere in the house had been chilling since Mr and Mrs Black had heard that Sirius had been sorted into Gryffindor. Orion was so furious I was sure for a moment that he would transfer Sirius to another school or take him out of school alltogether. After getting over the shock and the embarrasement that for the first time in history a member of the Black family was sorted into a house other than Slytherin had passed, they had decided not to do anything. Still, it was forbidden to speak about Sirius being in Gryffindor in the house. Only once I have heard Walburga speak about it.

"I knew that Sirius was different from us, always so adamant in defying us. Never agreeing with our views and values. He's a disgrace to the family!" I remember her yelling. Regulus had been standing behind me and frowned. He had taken me away from there before they noticed that I overheard them. If they had I probably would have gotten punished.

Thinking about the conversation made me feel even sadder than I already was. I had stood outside for some time now. I was cold, but not so cold that I would go back inside just yet. It was so silent. Peaceful. Unlike the quiet inside that was so uncertain and could be shattered at any moment. A silence that wasn't comforting, instead distressing. Exept when I was with Regulus. That stupid boy with his stupid hair was the most important person in my life, my best friend.

December 12th 1971

Christmas break would start soon. I had spent all of my time with Regulus when he was available. Walburga had me take a few of the lessons with Regulus but once she found out I had been slightly better than Regulus on the lessons she forbid me to participate on the rest of them. I wouldn't have minded but now I don't see Regulus as much as I'd like to. But anyways the lessons were mostly on pureblood families supremacy. Nothing new. I had been lectured on the subject many times before. Muggles and Muggleborns were considered filth and I was not to associate myself with them. Slytherin house was the best amongst the four houses in Hogwarts because it had only purebloods there. Although Sirius had once told me a rumour he had heard that not all of the students in slytherin were pureblood. Actually some of them were half-blood.

I hoped I'd get sorted in Slytherin. My parents were slytherins and it was their dream I'd get sorted into Slytherin aswell. Maybe Regulus would be sorted into Slytherin too. It would be such a relief if he would be, I hate the idea of being seperated from him. Surely he will be in Slytherin I tried to calm myself. But it should've been certain that Sirius would be sorted into Slytherin but he wasn't.

Regulus knocked on my door twice and opened it without waiting for an anwser. He smiled at me and closed the door behind him. I looked at him from my bed and observed his features. He had grown a few inches and his dark curly hair had grown to cover his ears. It reminded me of Sirius.

"I haven't been in your room for awhile," he commented while picking up objects on my vanity table.

"Why do you have a brush if you never use it, your hair looks like a birds nest all tangled up," he said snarkily while holding up my brush. I stride up to him and snatch it out of his hand.

"Oh shut up, you don't get to comment on my hair after the prank you pulled on me. It took me all night to scrub the color from my hair!" I complained to him. He flashed a smile at me and went back to going through my things. If it were anyone else I would've been annoyed that they were touching my stuff.

"This is pretty," he takes a necklace from a small jewellery box and holds it up, "why don't you use it? I've never seen you wear it," he asks. It was a silver necklace with emerald stones on it. It was the most beautiful thing I have ever owned.

"It was my mothers," I told him and smiled.

"Oh, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have taken it out then," he stated uncomfortably. I sigh at his foolishness.

"Don't be ridiculous, it's fine. And I haven't worn it because i'm saving it for a special occasion," I say genuinely. I take the necklace from his hands like it's as fragile as glass and place it back inside the box. My most prized possession.

Regulus stayed in my room after that. We talked all evening about everything. His ridiculous classes. About Sirius coming home for christmas. About Kreachers annoying habit of worshipping Walburga at everything.

"I swear I once saw it smelling her clothes while it was going through laundry!" He exclaimed loudly through his laughs. I was laughing beside him with tears in my eyes. I wish it could be like this always. With him.