Eternal Light | Regulus Black

The christmas break 1976

I am fighting Reg in the sparring room. He has gotten good, very good. We were both tired and sweaty. We had been training for hours now but neither one wants to give up yet, even though the lesson was already over.

I kick his legs underneath him and he falls, landing on his back. I quickly sit on top of him, pinning down his knees and elbows. I smirk at him slightly.

"I win," I say while I am still pinning him down on the ground. I stand up and turn my back to him. I was exhausted and ready to leave now that I had won.

I am about to step out when I am slammed against the wall. Reg puts his arms on the wall either side of my head. Now it's his turn to smirk.

"I don't lose, not even to you," he said and left right then and there, leaving me against the wall speechless.

I can't believe I let him catch me off guard. I should know better. My heart was thumping against my chest and once I finally regained my senses, I left to go to the shower.

•••••

The day after tomorrow we would go back to Hogwarts. I couldn't wait to see Ruby, Lily, Marlene and even Abraxas.

I didn't really get the chance to miss Peter, Remus or James, since Sirius had invited them all here a few days ago. Walburga and Orion were called away for something important that lasted five days, they wouldn't be back until tomorrow.

Magni had left this morning too, but that hadn't stopped me and Reg from continuing the lesson.

I scribbled new lyrics to my notebook, I had a deep passion now for writing songs. I wasn't sure, but my guess is that the more emotional the song is, the more power I can use.

I flinched as Reg barged in my room, holding a music player. "I stole this from Sirius's room, I have this one amazing song I want you to hear."

We had gone back to normal after the kiss. Neither had brought it up again and I think that's for the best.

"Okay, put it on!" I say exitedly and stand up on my bed. He put the disc on and the song started immediately.

[ THE SONG IS SOMEBODY THAT I USED TO KNOW 80s VERSION. IGNORE THE FACT THAT IT DIDN'T EXIST IN THE 70s ]

He bopped his head in the rythm and made small dance moves. I chuckled and smiled at his spins.

"You like it?" He asked. I nod at him.

"Just wait for the girl's version," he pointed at me. Once it came, I listened to the girl singer's voice intently. The song really was good.

We listened it through multiple times, everytime putting the volume higher. By the sixth time I had a pretty good sense of the lyrics and started to sing along.

Now and then I think of when we were together. Like when you said you felt so happy you could die. Told myself that you were right for me. But felt so lonely in your company. But that was love and it's an ache I still remember.

I stood up on my bed and lightly danced around it, making the matress creak. Reg joined my singing, his voice was soft while I threw everything I had on the song.

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end. So when we found that we could not make sense. Well, you said that we would still be friends. But I'll admit that I was glad it was over.

Reg joins me on my bed and we jump around it. We started screaming the lyrics from the top of our lungs. We didn't get all the lyrics right but that didn't matter. I heard my bedroom door open but I didn't care, I was too deep into the music.