꧁𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚋𝚘𝚢 𝚠𝚑𝚘 𝚜𝚙𝚒𝚕𝚕𝚎𝚍 𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚑𝚘𝚝 𝚌𝚑𝚘𝚌𝚘𝚕𝚊𝚝𝚎 ꧂

𝚖𝚎𝚎𝚝 𝚖𝚢 𝚏𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚗𝚍..

tw: more mentions of accidents and suicides.'
your pov:

when i entered the room, both of them immidiately looked at me and run up and hugged me.

"i'm so sorry.." i whispered as i could hear millie sobbing.

"don't ever leave me" millie says as issie jus hugs me so tightly, not wanting to leave my presence.

"can we talk to you?" issie says.

"o-of course!" i say, we all settle down, millie doesn't let go of my grip and holds my hand as she looks at me deeply as if i was a ghost.

"if you don't mind us asking... why exactly did you-"

"my mother died today" i said as i picked my lips inside of my mouth trying to not let tears fall out of my eyes.

issie was in shock. "i could never imagine that happening to me... i'm so sorry, is there anything i can do to help?"

"no not really to be honest, i feel so much better when i'm with you guys and your family, especially louis, i feel so special in his presence, no one has ever made me so much happier and i honestly love him to the moon and back."

issie was pouting with a small grin as she looked up at the door and then back at me.

i didn't turn since i didn't catch on but we all stayed quiet until i felt someone's hands on my shoulders.

"i love you" i heard louis say as i rubbed his arm that was gently wrapped around my neck with my kne hand since millie was holding my other hand.

he sat down beside me and now we were all sitting together in a circle.

"what you guys talking about?" louis said trying to brighten up the mood since he saw me close to crying, millie numb, and issie rubbing her tears of her face.

"oh nothing.." after i said that, i got 7 missed calls from mike..

"mike?" i said in confusion, as all they're heads raised.

i answered mikes call.

"hello.." i said trying to get rid of my shaky voice, putting him on loud speaker.

"please tell me that wasnt you who was on london bridge today, it's all over the american news too."

i put my phone down on the ground and covered my face with my hands.

"i-it was me mike."

"y/n... please don't ever do that, you are loved by many and i honestly couldn't do anything without you, listen, you bought so much happiness to me, and all the stuff that you e been through like, breaking up with your ex because he cheated"

i saw louis looking at me in sadness, as he hugged my quietly and i rubbed his arm.

mike continued "you managing to cope with your abusive parents, and ex, and ill stop there, but, all you've been through and all you fought through makes you the strongest person i've ever met, the fact that your able to cope with anxiety, depression, severe anger issues, yet still manage to control yourself, childhood trauma, overthinking, doesn't really make you happy, but the fact that you still manage to stay, is just unbelievable and i'm so proud of you okay? so never think of doing that!"

i smiled at his words, "thank you mike, i'm happy to say that i have made some friends here in london who managed to make me happier, and i hope they continue to do that. remember when my sister died?"

"yes, i felt really bad"

"yeah.. well i met this boy and he has a younger sister" i looked at millie and smiled "and she literally looks like my sister who passed away"

"no way!"

"yep! millie is it okay if i go on facetime and show mike you?"

"sure!" millie said.

"okay mike, can i facetime you? i will show you millie!"

"yeah!"

i turned onto the facetime app and facetimed mike, in the meantime louis asked about my abusive ex.

"you-"

"yep i had an abusive ex"

"he must be a pussy" this is the first time i've heard louis swear, i giggled.

"yup!"

after a bit of calling i answered mike and he said "woah you look so much prettier, you changed a lot"

"seriously? it's only been like 5 weeks since i left (imagine it is shshshsh)"

"okay let me show you millie"  i turned the camera to millie and mike gasped.

"ARE YOU Y/NS SISTER?"

millie smiled and then laughed, "no! but she is like a sister to me!"

i smiled as they had a conversation, millie wasn't even awkward at all, she had kept a good conversation with mike and then she said bye to mike and handed the phone back to me.

"can you show my your other friends if they're there?"  mike asked.

"well what i mean by 'i made new friends' is literally like 3other people and there's only two here with me right now"

"show me show me!" mike said.

issie came around to me and waved at the camera, louis was a bit camera shy at first.

"come on louis! it's only a 17 year old, he's your age! and he skates"

louis gasped when i told him he skates.

i showed him mike.

they got along really well!

they talked for long until we had to go have some dinner.

we went downstairs as i wiped my tears and we had roasted potatoes and salad which was delicious.

"if we don't mind asking.. why did you decide to make that choice?" louis' dad said as i started to get sad a little.

"dad ill tell you" issie said.

i smiled at issie and thanked her as we all continued eating.

we were eating as millies mother was talking to louis constantly which was fine with me, since i had gotten a little anxious, and when louis finished, i finished, and so then we went upstairs to his room.

i grabbed some clothes and went to shower, "i'm going to go shower" i said as i left to go shower.

"okay!" louis said as he went onto his gaming chair and started playing some video games.