The Shattered Pieces of my Heart

ℂ𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝟙𝟡

The whole afternoon the four of us walk around the Festival, eating food and playing games. 

Somewhere along the way, Sadie and Victoria get the idea that they want to go and do the Tunnel of Love. I want to give them some privacy so I tell Miguel that we should go ride the Ferris Wheel. 

Miguel eyes the wheel warily but says yes. 

Sadie and Victoria leave and we take our place in the line for the Ferris Wheel. I watch as couples wobble off the ride, staring dreamily into each other's eyes. I glance at Miguel, he is staring at his shoes. I shake myself and look away. We are just friends, nothing more. 

We hand the man our tickets and climb into a compartment. The man closes the door  and we start moving up. The sun is setting under the mountains but there is this warm peachy glow that boarders everything. I glance at Miguel and see that he is staring right at me. 

"Hi," I say. 

"Hi," He responds. I stare at my hands  and fiddle with the golden ring on my middle finger. 

"I hope your having a fun birthday," Miguel says quietly.

"Yes, I am. Thanks for asking," I tell him. I bite my lip and cringe at how  formal our conversation has started to sound. The Ferris Wheel pauses to let more people on then begins to climb more. 

"It looks really pretty from up here doesn't it," I say smiling at Miguel. 

He nods, but there is something about his face. It looks pale and he grimaces as we inch higher. 

"Are you okay?" I ask, resting a hand on his knee. He nods and presses his lips together. 

"You don't- omg, you're afraid of heights!" I burst out. Of course, that explains why he looks like he is about to hurl. 

"Miguel, why didn't you tell me. I would never have asked you to ride with me if I knew..." I bite my lip and feel guilty as I remember his wary look while we were standing in line. 

"I'm sorry, I just didn't-" He pauses. "You looked as if you really love going on the Ferris Wheel and I didn't want to ruin that-" He stops short and I can see his knuckles turning white as he grips the edge of his seat. 

"Here, I'll sit next to you-" I start to say but he interrupts me with a loud:

"NO!" A tiny part of me feels hurt at his rejection but I know he is scared so I try not to let it show. 

"Ugg, i'm sorry Gigi, I want you to sit next to me, I really do. It's just, if we are both sitting on this side, well... there wouldn't be a balance of weight and we could-" He gulps as he struggles to talk. 

"Oh!" I say and I can't help laughing. " you think if I sit next to you we are going to tip?" 

Miguel nods but also blushes because I can tell he knows that that won't actually happen, that it's all in his head. 

"Just look at my eyes, and take deep breaths," I say. "In, and out, like this," I demonstrate and try not to feel embarrassed as I fill my stomach with air then let it all out through my mouth. 

I look at Miguel to see if he is following alone and find him smirking.

"What!" I say feeling my cheeks heat up.

"Nothing, it's just. You look so cute doing that," He tells me. 

Oh.

Suddenly the Ferris Wheel gives a jerk and Miguel blanches and clutches his stomach. 

"You're okay, it's okay. We are gonna get off soon," I say, trying to calm him. He starts to open his mouth as if to say something but doesn't

"Shhhhhh, just breath, don't talk. You have to slow your heart and decrease the tightness in your chest," I tell him. He raises an eyebrow at me as if impressed by my coaching. That's it. I need him to be distracted.  

"You know, I actually used to be afraid of roller coasters," I say. It's true. "I hated amusement parks. It was so bad that I couldn't even look at a roller coaster without starting to sweat." 

Miguel looks at me.

"Really?" he squeaks. 

"Yep, and wanna know a secret, I hadn't even ridden on a roller coaster. Just the thought of it made me scared. Amusement parks for me were a nightmare. I hated going with friends especially because they all wanted to go on the biggest, scariest, rides and I only wanted to go do bumper cars and ride the carousel." I blush at the memory. "It was so embarrassing." 

"Why?" Miguel says. "Bumper cars are awesome, so is the carousel." He smiles at me. 

"I guess, " I say. I can tell his cheeks are regaining some of their color and he doesn't look as scared anymore. I reach over and take his hand. 

He let's me and squeezes tightly. 

"Thanks," Miguel tells me. 

"You'r welcome. Just keep looking into my eyes," I respond then blush. 

"I- uh...I didn't-" I stutter. 

"That's okay, I like staring into your eyes, they are so pretty," He whispers. 

We are almost at the top of the Wheel, one of my favorite places in the entire world. I look away from Miguel and out over the fair. The feeling is so empowering, it's as if I am at the top of the world.

"It's really beautiful," I say softly turning towards Miguel.

"Yeah," he says staring at me. "Really beautiful." 

a/n: I loved writing this chapter, it was just so sweet and fun!!!

Also Gigi's fear of roller coasters is totally based off of mine. I've never ridden a roller coaster in my life. Go ahead judge me but it's just too freaky!!! The height, the twists and turns, the crazy drops. ahhhh i'm freaking out already! 

I really need to go ride a roller coaster and get over it, but every time i'm at an amusement park I totally freak out and run away towards the bumper cars. (yes i love the bumper cars XD) 

anyway, hope you liked this chapter! ❤❤❤