~Feelings~ |tommyinnitxreader|

-seven-(backstory)

TW<Rape hints-Depression- suicidal thoughts->

We eventually got home...
Brandon was waiting for us on the couch.
"I talked to your sister y/n." He walked up to me and hugged me.

Brandon had been around for 7 years, he had always been...nice to me...  he had been trying to be "the father I never had" when I didn't even want a father. I didn't need one, since my first one had been a bad one I thought they were all bad.  And Brandon had just proved my point even more. He knew what I had gone through so he created "rules" there were 50! I was walking home and my sister had gone to her collage, and left me and Brandon alone... I came home from school and went to my room. Brandon stopped me though. "Let's go for a ride." I didn't think Brandon was a bad guy at the time so I went with him.
Worst mistake ever. I never had told anyone about what happened. He threatened me and told me if I ever did, he I would be in the same jail cell as my parents.  I was thirteen at the time he had been 21. If I broke a rule he would "take me for a ride" I never wanted to break a rule so I was an amazing behaved kid for my age. My sister got told that all the time. When I was fifteen though. I broke a lot of rules and stopped caring if I did. I would just go to my room and stopped talking to everyone around me. My grades dropped and I felt like the world had stopped. Sometimes I thought about what would happen if I jumped... if I wasn't on the earth anymore... that's when I found Tommy! That's when I started to care about what I said, about what I was doing, I even got my grades up higher than ever before. Tommy had been the key that opened up the door.
I started watching not just Tommy I also started watching other people from the smp. I had never been more happy then when I met Tommy, And now he was angry with me...and all the thoughts I had before Tommy, before the smp came rushing back in.

"Why don't we take a ride?" Brandon whispered to me.
I looked at Tommy and pushed Brandon away.
"No.. I think I'm good." 
"Oh ok..." he glared at me.
"Then your going to have to take a walk with me." Tommy said opening the door.
I just walked out.

"Why?" He looked at me his eyes tearing.
"Tomm-"
"WHY?" He was now crying.
He took my hands and pulled me into him.
"I have never felt this way about anyone before, I have never wanted anything more than this. I don't care if you hate me after this but I need to do this"

He kissed me...
And I kissed him back...

He smiled and held my hand.
I smiled and held his.

"Tommy?"
"Shhh don't ruin the moment"  he smiled at me.
"Ok Tommy, do you want me to clip this?" I giggled.

(532 words) <two updates in one night! I am on fire!>