~Feelings~ |tommyinnitxreader|

-thirty one-

I don't care. I don't care. I don't care. I don't care.
I kept repeating in my brain, but the more I said it the more of a bluff it came out to be.
Yea Tommy had been acting like a complete idiot.
And who was Tommy to tell me if I couldn't talk to his friends!? I was friends with most of them!

I walked past Julie who was still talking to the lady at the desk.
"Y/n! Where's Tommy?" Julie ran over to me and waved the lady goodbye.
"He's not coming."
"Why? Why do you seem so angry?"
"Because he's being stupid!"
"Well yea, but it's HIS life...talking to that lady made me realize that!"
"No. Tommy just needs to wake up and realize that she's not the one."
"Why do you care so much? I mean I know I cared a lot but if he's not coming that's not my problem."
"I don't know!"
"Well, what happened?"
"He said he didn't want to talk to me anymore...and that he didn't want me contacting him..."
"But you guys are best friends..."
"We WERE best friends. I don't wanna talk to him either. I don't need him."
Julie sighed at me.

"Whatever you say y/n..."

As we were driving back from the airport I checked my phone to see that Tommys girlfriend had posted on instagram. Not a picture of her with Tommy like I had thought but a picture of her with a random guy. This made my blood boil. Tommy was choosing her over his friends? What did he see in her?

Once me and Julie got to my sisters house I went upstairs to finish packing and Julie went to the kitchen.

I was still angry...but I felt another emotion too. It was like he had hurt me, but not physically.
———

"You ok?"

Julie snapped me out if my gaze.

"Yea...I'm fine."

"Well how you acted earlier says otherwise."

I sighed and Julie shook her head and sat down.

"You need to work on expressing your feelings."

"What do you mean?"

"Well, it's been obvious that you've liked Tommy for a while, you even told him you loved him, you were completely fine with being friends with Tommy...through everything he did."

"Yea, well-"

"Your done sitting on the sidelines."

"...yea..."

"Tommy waited on the sidelines forever for you, you never even acknowledged his feelings..."

I looked at the carpet.

Yea I had known Tommy had liked me...and no I never acknowledged it...but I had never felt like this when Tommy left before.

"I did..." I lied.

"Did you? Or did you think he was faking it? Did you? Or did you just tell him you wanted to stay friends because you were too scared to tell him how you felt?"

"I don't know..."

"Well you better figure it out before Mr fix it gets here."

"Who?"

"Just think about it."

She walked out of my room and heard her go down the steps.

———————-
(The next day)

Who was Mr fix it? I thought as I got another box.

I hadn't realized this but I had a lot of clothes,
And I had to leave in less then an hour.

I continued folding clothes till the box was full.

My phone lit up with a notification.

Tommyinnit went live

I opened the notification and there he was. The same Tommy that had left just the day before.

The chat was filled with people saying how long it has been and how they missed him.

And it was true.
Tommy hadn't streamed in 2 months.
He was more focused on YouTube then ever before and I guess he just got wrapped up in it.

"Hey chat it's been a while!"

He was very energetic in stream, he put everything into making people laugh when they needed it.

"Alright! So! Today were doing a chill stream, maybe some media shares. Nothing too exciting."

I watched the stream for about ten minutes until I realized I had completely stopped what I was doing.

I sat my phone down and continued folding my clothes while watching Tommy.

I watched him laugh at the media shares and talk about how interesting his life was, then he said my name...And the whole chat went crazy.

Things like

Y/n?!?
They're so funny!!!
Omg y/n???
Y/n needs to be in more videoss!!!
TOMMY AND Y/N DATING???
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Y/N IS BAE.
THEYRE SO COOL! PLEASE MORE CONTENT WITH THEM!!

I laughed at the chat. It was going so fast I could barely read a message before it went away.

When Tommy realized he had said something to make the chat go wild, he kept saying things about me. Making sure to be careful about what he said.

"Yea, I was actually just with them yesterday!"

The chat was going so fast, and he was gaining thousands more viewers per second.

I closed the twitch app.

I couldn't keep watching, I couldn't keep watching my best friend talk about me and get sadder every time he talked.

I went on Twitter, there it was.

Y/N

My name was number 1 on trending.

How did he have this much power?

Ok fine. I posted it...it's like the second I decide I'm out of ideas and want to take a break to get some and work on my mental health my mind is just 'you could make this happen' and then I have to write it. Love u thanks for reading<3
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