Hearts Desires

Opening up

"What kind of tea would you like?" Sasha asked as she got up to go to the kitchen. "Peach or green tea would be nice. Thank you." Bayley said. Bayley watched as Sasha walked into the kitchen. Bayley decided to call Becky and let her know she was ok and not to worry. "Hey was getting worried they said a big storm is coming and I want to make sure you are ok. I could have Charlotte send a car to get you." Becky said. "No need I'm fine. I need you to stop sending pictures of Ms Banks to me. I'm not sure what game you are playing but I don't need to feel worse that I'm not good enough for her. You don't know how much it hurt seeing those photos of Charlotte friends with her." Bayley said.

"I'm looking out for you and the photos show women throw themselves at her. Knowing her see went home with all three. She could be having sex with all three of them right now. Why would you want to go through that pain. If you did go out with her it will end up with you getting hurt and I'll have to pickup the pieces." Becky said. "I'm sorry I'm such a bother to you and you always feel like you are picking up the pieces. I've never asked you to do that for me. I've never bother you my problems as well. You know what I need to go. Take care of yourself and good luck at your game." Bayley said before hanging up with Becky.

Sasha was walking out of the kitchen when she heard Bayley talking to Becky. Sasha wanted to give Bayley privacy. Sasha over heard what Bayley said to Becky and still couldn't believe that Bayley would think she not good enough to be with her. The honest truth is that Sasha felt like she wasn't good enough for Bayley. Sasha decided that she would go sit next to Bayley and show her support. When Sasha walked back in the living room Bayley hung up the phone. Sasha could see the sadness in Bayley eyes.

"Her is your tea my love. I are you ok? Do you want to talk about it?" Sasha asked. "Thank you! I can't believe Becky thinks she always picking up the pieces. I never relied on her after what happen to me. I kept to myself and threw myself into my studies and basketball. I never put my problems on Becky or even how bad my depression was getting." Bayley said. Sasha brought Bayley into a hug and could feel Bayley body relax. "How bad has your depression gotten?" Sasha asked.

Bayley pulled away and looked at the the electric fireplace. Sasha could tell it must really bad but she wanted to know. "Bayley please talk to me." Sasha asked as she wrapped her arms around Bayley. "I been in a dark place lately. When I first came out her it wasn't that bad and I brushed it aside. I noticed that I needed to find things to do to keep my mind off my family issues. I luck out and got the coffee shop job. Mr Michael always is happy to work with me so I don't miss things for school. Keeping busy really help me not think about my issue to much." Bayley said.

Sasha knew there was more and wanted Bayley to continue. "Bayley there no rush take your time." Sasha said "That morning that you walked in I was feeling really down. My thoughts were going to a very dark place and I started to panic I would do something to myself. So, I went down to the coffee shop. I wasn't supposed to be working but I noticed that the place was busy. I hope it would take my mind off things. See I had a fight the night before with my mom about me coming home. She couldn't understood why I can't forgive my father and brother. That's another story for a different day." Bayley said.

Sasha realize that Bayley was close to taken her own life that morning. "Bayley were you close to taken you life that morning?" Sasha asked. Bayley shook her head yes. "My mom was asking me to go home and it brought back so many bad memories. I couldn't handle it like I should have." Bayley said. Sasha moved in front of Bayley to make her look at her. "Your not alone anymore and I will be here to help you through this. But I need you to be honest with me and to not bottle it up." Sasha told Bayley.

"I'm sorry, please don't make promises you can't keep. I've had enough of that in my life. I shouldn't have said anything, it just makes me look more broken than what I feel." Bayley said. "Bayley, I want to know everything about you. Even the bad stuff that happen to you. The more you talk about it, you'll be able to find closer from the pain from the past." Sasha told Bayley. Bayley was still looking down so decided to kiss Bayley. Bayley kissed Sasha back right away. "Your still cold! Need to get your body temperature backup and we can talk more tomorrow." Sasha said

"Walking up the stairs will get your blood flowing. How are you feeling?" Sasha asked Bayley. "I'm still cold. I should have known better. I was going to stop and pickup a heater after work but I was running late. Even when the heat works it's not enough when a storm comes in. I had a call with my mon that I needed to be on about a new product. So, I just grabbed something to eat and headed home. When I got there I discovered that the heat was off and it was to late to go back out." Bayley said.

They got up the stairs and Bayley got confused "Sasha, the guess room is this way! I know my mind is a little foggy but your heading to your room." Bayley said. "Yes I know, I want you to be with me in my room and tomorrow we will make room for your clothes. Are you ok with that?" Sasha asked. "I would be lying if I said I had a problem with that. I like waking up with you next to me. But are you ok just sleeping next to me? Or are you expecting more from me?" Bayley asked Sasha.

"I do want to have sex with you but I can wait for are first date to happen. I don't want you to feel like I'm rushing you into anything that your not ready to do. Right now all I care about is keeping you warm. You should go change your clothes." Sasha said while licking her lips. "I seen that. I don't think you would like these cold hand touching your body right now." Bayley said smiling at Sasha. Sasha walked to Bayley and took her hands and placed them on her cheeks. "Your hands aren't that bad but like I said your worth waiting for." Sasha said placing another kiss on Bayley lips.