Hearts Desires

My past life

"Sasha, I'm not going to judge you for what happened in the past. To me it's about right now with you." Bayley said. Sasha leaned in and kissed Bayley before pulling away. "Bayley, I'm not sure where to start." Sasha said looking nervous. "Just start where you feel comfortable at." Bayley tells her. Sasha thought for a moment before starting to speak. "I know I've been given the nickname Ice Queen and that every time I'm spotted at an event with a new person they are the new flavor of the month. It's even been reported that I've slept with each one of them and never looked back. I would say that's half the story." Sasha tells Bayley.

Sasha looked at Bayley and could still see the love in her eyes. "When I was in college I dated my roommate. Her name was Summer and we started out as friends at first. One night we went to a party and had to much to drink. One thing lead to another and we slept together. Everything was going fine until I brought her home to meet my mom and dad. My dad didn't care for her to much but my mom took an interest right away. Summer started staying out really late and canceling dates. I had no clue what was going on with her.

One afternoon my dad came home early and walked in on my mom and summer having sex in their room. My dad was so mad he kicked out Summer and my mom. He called and told me what happened, he asked me to move back home with him. I just packed up everything I had and left the dorm room without saying a word. Summer came back and I was gone. She tried reaching out to me to explain what happened but it wasn't hard to figure out. My mom has her ways of getting what she wants. When I heard her hit on you, it made me think of how she broke me and Summer up. But you just stood your ground and just stood by what you told her. Someone else would have given into my mom.

Anyways I thought my dad would bash Summer but he just told me one day I would find the person I'm meant to be with. Don't give up on love it will find you. The funny thing about it was, I never really seen Summer as the one. My dad would tell me I would know once I meet them and I wouldn't be able to keep them off my mind. At the time I thought my dad was crazy and that would never happen to me.

I just threw myself into my work and finished up school. About a year after I graduated from college, my dad died from a heart attack. It rocked my world and I felt lost. I couldn't understand how a person that was in great health died from a heart attack. At that moment I just shut people out. My dad had left me everything and the one thing my mom was hoping for the company. My mom tried to buy it from me but I wouldn't sell it.

It was the last thing my dad had that he loved and I couldn't let it go. I was determined to make it a bigger success than it already was. As the company grew, I got invited to events around the clock. I didn't like going alone to the event's so I would pickup someone at the night club or bar and invite them to go. I remember what my mom told me once after the divorce that you should. "Never bring a one night stand home, always leave after your done getting what you need from them and have no string attached. They only want you for your money." My mom said.

Most of the people that came with me just got a free dinner than was dropped off. The ones I needed something got an extra 30 minutes of my time and I would leave. They never got a call back or even a second thought. I knew it was wrong but I just didn't care. Soon the title flavor of the month started floating around and Ice Queen was another. I didn't see what it was doing to my company or my image. My mom was proud I was finally taking after her and once again offered to buy the company.

I took it personally and told my mom I was nothing like her and she would never get the company. I told her dad had bought her out for a reason. My mom didn't like the fact I wouldn't give in still. I started get bored of the people I would take to the events. I ended up asking Braun to accompany me so that I could leave sooner. I knew I wasn't happy with the choices I was making and the company was hurting. I started to realize that I became what my father told me not to be. I did become my mother in the end.

I realize the press had become more interested in my love life and who I would bring to the next event. It ended up taking the focus off my cosmetic line and my company. That's the day I walked into the coffee shop. My dad was right, when I walked in that morning I never thought I would find someone that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. Bayley, you stole my heart when you called me beautiful and I looked in your eyes. Right than I knew I wanted you and so much more. That wasn't like me at all but I felt the pull between us. I remember watching you and thinking of ways to get you alone and could do to you in bed. When I left you were all I thought about and I wanted to find you." Sasha said.

Sasha was afraid to look into Bayley eyes and see disappointment. Sasha felt Bayley hand wiped the tears off her face. Sasha opened her eyes to see love in Bayley eyes and no judgment. "My dad would have said you are the one that my heart has been looking for. He would have loved you as much as I do and hired you on the spot." Sasha said. "Well your dad sounds like he was a great guy, that was always looking out for you." Bayley said pulling Sasha close to her. "I know I let him down but I believe with your support I can turn things around. Do you still want to be with me?" Sasha asked nervously.

"Sasha, we all make mistakes and walk down a dark path until we find the light. That day at the coffee shop we both found the light in each other. I'm glad I went to work that morning and I got to help this beautiful blue hair woman. Your worth taking a chance with and there no turning back." Bayley said kissing the top of Sasha head. Sasha mentally thanked her dad for sending her Bayley and made a promise to herself that she will restore her reputation.

"Come on let's go clean you up and go lay down. You look mentally exhausted and I think you just need to be cuddled." Bayley said as she pickup Sasha. Sasha never been with someone that just wanted to hold her until she felt better. Sasha got cleaned up and crawled in bed with Bayley. Bayley wrapped her arms around her and held her tight. Sasha thought back and no one ever made her feel this special. Bayley has never looked at her as an Ice Queen or a one night stand. Sasha could only see love in her eyes even when she ran. Sasha really did find the one and she wanted to do something nice for her.