Forbidden Fantasies

Chapter 18: Lost One

~ RECAP ~

* Sobbing Crying *

"Hey Jason this is Tj sister Daija and I don't know how to say this. *Sniffles* But Tj got into a really bad car accident last night and...... *Starts to cry* He died Jason.... He died..... He was in critical condition when they brought him in, but he got worse ova night and this morning he passed away. Can you please call me when you get a chance. Please....."

My body went numb.... I couldn't feel anything. I didn't know how to feel. Did I really just hear what I think I just heard. Could my 1st love really be dead. My head began to spin and before I knew it......all I saw was.......Black.........Pitch Black...........

~ 1 Month Later ~

~ Jason P.O.V ~

"Jason baby you haven't left this room in 2 weeks. The only time I see you is when you go to the bathroom and to get something eat. You got to return back to your life baby, you can't let this break you and stop your whole life. I understand he was your first love and y'all didn't end on good terms, but you can't let that eat you up..." My mom said as I laid in the bed looking out the window

This last month has seem like a nightmare that I cannot wake up from. Everything just happened in a blur.

~ Flashback ~

"Jason! Jason! Jason are you okay!" Quan said grabbing my numb body off the floor, placing me on the bed

"What happened ? You just scared the shit out of me! What's wrong?" He said holding me in his arms

"He.... He..... He...."

"He what Jason? What happened?"

"He's..... He's.... He's Dead! He's Dead!!!! I didn't mean to kill him! I didn't mean it!" I said as tears poured from my eyes

"Jason what the fuck are you talking about? Who's Dead?" Quan said looking at me madd confused

"Sniffles... Sniffles... Tj. He's dead! His sister was the one calling me and left me a voicemail saying he got in a bad car accident and passed this morning." I said as my body went weak again

"Damn.... I'm sorry to hear that Jason. I truly am sorry to hear that. I'm here for you, whatever you want to do I'm here." He said wiping my tears away

I just sat there and left Quan hold me in that moment. I didn't want to move. I just wanted to lay there and wish that I didn't hear Daija say that. I truly was in turmoil and at that moment I realized how much Tj really meant to me. I... I... should've forgave him and made it work with him. I should've helped him when he said he needed me, and I left him.... I left him when he really needed me.

Quan continued to hold me and long before I knew it I had drifted to sleep. When I woke Quan was still sleep. I got up, walked to the bathroom, turned the shower on, and sat on the floor and began to cry some more. I had to get it out before I could face Tj sister and be there for her in this time.

I washed my face, went downstairs and called Daija.

"Hel.... Hello..." I heard between sniffles.

"Daija this is Jason." I said trying to hold back the tears

"Omg Jason! I've been waiting to hear back from you. Where are you? I have so many questions. I need you..." she said beginning to cry.

"Daija I will be there shortly, give me 2 hours." I said before hanging up the phone.

I got up, head upstairs and swiftly began packing my things. I guess I was making a lot of noise because before I knew it, I had a very confused Quan staring at me through the mirror.