Forbidden Fantasies

Chapter 14: AfterShock

~ 1 Week Later ~

~ Jason ~

The last week has been a blur. I have literally lost myself. I lost myself in my thoughts, feelings, and emotions. I couldn't believe that the person that I thought I knew, the person I changed my whole life to be with, the first person that I actually told I Love, could rip my heart out and step on that shit!

That day just kept replaying in my head every time I closed my eyes. The last few words he said, floated around my mind a thousand times. "You know what Fuck you Bitch! My other hoes had more love for me than you ever did. They heard me out when your ass wouldn't! Got me out here crying and shit for your ass, for what! I never loved you anyways, it's just you had some good ass, until I got here and found better. Fuck you Jason!" Those few words cut so deep I cried for about 2 hours after that day. He took my love for granted!

I have been locked up in my room all week. Emailed my teachers and told them that I had a lil bug and didn't want to pass it on to anyone. Derek have been trying to talk to me everyday, but every time I think I'm up too talk, I shut down and tell him to leave me alone. I feel bad though because he is really trying to be there for me, but I can't bare to let him see me this broken over that fuck nigga that I have been ducking and dodging him for. All this crying and shit stops today, I'm not going to let this boy have a hold over my life. If his hoes was so much better than me, I hope they continue to suck his dick and deal with is crazy ass cause I can't and won't have the toxicity in my life!

~ Tj ~

I don't know what I was thinking talking to Jason like that. He didn't deserve that. He truly loves me, well loved me and I talked to him like he was a hoe on the street. I just don't know what had gotten into my lately. My emotions and anger get the best of me and then next thing I know I'm saying or doing something I can't take back. Was I really cheating on Jason? Yes, but he had no time for me no more and having so many people throwing themselves at you gets tempting and I failed and indulged. I can't say I didn't mean too, but I just wanted attention when I needed it and Jason would act like my feelings didn't matter, he acted as though his schooling was sooo important instead of his relationship. I just don't feel the same no more, I feel like I'm living a life that is not mine. Maybe Jason is right, maybe I do need to talk to someone. Man I miss him, I got to get him back. I got to fix what I broke....

"Daddy you ready for round 2?"

.... I promise I will fix it, I just got to fix myself first.....

~ Derek ~

I don't know what happen that day that Jason left my room, I just know he has been dodging me lately. He won't come out the room, I don't think he even ate this past week. I don't know why I care so much like he is mine, if he want to act like that, then I should let him be, but deep down I have strong feelings for him. I miss seeing him smile, hearing his annoying ass laugh, and his smart ass remarks. He just got something on me that I cannot shake for nothing. I hope he lets me in cause I promise I won't do no wrong by him.

He will be mine......

~ Jay'Shawn ~

"Daddy you ready for round 2"

I flipped around and asked Tj as he came back and sat on the side of the bed.

"Nah I think I'm about to go work out, I got a lot on my mind right now." He said picking up his phone

"Well I mean I can help with that." I said walking around getting on my knees, spreading his legs open

"Nahhh.... Fuckkkk..... Shit nigga keep going." He said as his eyes began to roll to the back of his head