Forbidden Fantasies

Chapter 13: Reality Check

~ Tj ~

It was now the next morning and I woke up with the worst headache and my body hurt all over. I stretch and look around and realize that I was definitely not in my own bed. As I sat there wondering what the hell was going on, that's when it all hit me. The flashbacks from last night flooded my memory and I began to feel hurt, pain, and anger take over my body, that's when the tears began to escape from eyes. I quickly started to wipe them away when a shirtless Derek entered the room.

"You good?" Derek asked as he passed me a bottle of water and sat down beside me

"Thank You... and honestly.... No.... I don't know how to feel at this point. So much happened and it all happened so quickly last night." I said looking down into my hands

"What actually happened if you don't mind me asking cause he came in here pretty tense and upset, and from the bruise on your cheek it look like you got into a fight." He said brushing his hand across the bruise

"Derek... When I first realized that I was gay, the only thing I pictured was me just having sex with other guys, I never pictured a guy actually liking me to the point he wanted to be in a relationship with me. Tj was that someone who made my experience feel like it was natural, made me coming out a breeze, ensured me that he truly cared for me and loved me, but last night all of that flew the fuck out the window. I never knew what it was to suffer heartbreak and last night that experienced just that." I said as tears slowly began to fall

"Jason are you telling me Tj and you physically fought?" He said rubbing my back from neck down

"I would have never thought that the person I loved, who I have shared the last year with, shared life changing memories with, would ever act the way he did. It's like I didn't even know who he was, and I don't think I know who he is anymore." I said as I began crying harder into Derek's chest

"It's going to be Ight Jason, life happens and everyone is not meant to be there with you until the end. I can definitely assure you that right now, in this moment, I am here for you, and you don't ever have to worry about me not being her for you." He said lifting my chin up looking me in the eyes

"I really appreciate that Derek and I owe you big time for just barging in your room like that this morning invading your space." I said getting up about to head to the door before he grabbed my arm pulling me in for a kiss

I hate to say it, but this is exactly what I needed in a time like this, and when I tell you this man could kiss, FUCK!!! He can kiss. Before it got to the point of me hopping on top of him and kissing him all the way down to his abdomen until I reached the end of the rainbow and receive that pot of dick. I quickly broke the kiss...

"Derek I ummm..."

"It's ok Jason, I just wanted to let you know you could come invade my space when ever you want. This going to soon be your space anyways. I know you need some time and I respect that, but don't have daddy waiting too long." He said bitting his lip laying back with his arms crossed behind

"Anyways... Thank You again, I'm going to get myself together, I'll umm.. catch up with you later." I said blushing from cheek to cheek

I got back to room, picked up my phone, and saw I had over 58 calls from Tj and over 30 messages from him. I laid back on my bed and put a pillow across my face and just laid thinking about what in the world happens now. Do I go and talk to him? Do I avoid him? Do we fight again? Do I... break up with him? Like I have never experienced this type of pain that I was feeling right now. Tj really showed his ass and I couldn't believe it. It was too much too believe. What was really going through is brain to feel it was ok to disrespect me let alone put his damn hands on me like I was some random bitch. It was all too much! But laying down drowning in my thoughts was not going to change the situation or the problem at hand. My momma didn't raise no bitch so he was getting addressed today!