Forbidden Fantasies

Chapter 15: NewNew

I opened the door slowly and there stood Derek's fine ass. We stood there face to face. Not a word spoken, just us....in the moment.

I broke the silence we had between us.

"What did you say Derek?" I said moving closer

"I said I Love You... and I have for some time now." He said grabbing me by the arms

"Derek...I just.... I don't know what to say." I said looking down

"You don't have to say nothing right now, I know you going through your situation right now, I just want you to know that I'm here for you and I will always be here for you. Your special to me, and I need and want you in my life." He said lifting my head up

"I Love you Jason..." he said connecting the space between us with a kiss

We held the kiss for a good minute before I broke into tears again. Like why the fuck do my eyes want to cry so much.

"What's wrong Jason?" He said breaking the kiss

"I'm sorry Derek, I'm so emotional, these are happy tears. I just been going through it, feeling unwanted and you have been in my corner every time I needed you, and I couldn't thank you enough for being there, sometimes not saying a word, just knowing that all I need at that moment is to be held. Even though I don't know you like that, I know you are the definition of a good man. I am glade I have you to lean on for support." I said kissing him back, wrapping my arms around his neck

We began to passionately kiss which lead into my room onto my bed. I began ripping his shirt off working down to his joggers, but then he stopped me.

"Jason stop.... I don't want our first time making love to be like this." He said putting his shirt back

"What do you mean?" I said wiping my lips

"I know you still need to heal some more and this is just out of lust, don't get me wrong I would love to be digging deep inside you right now, I want to know that you are "fully" in the moment. I don't want you to have any regrets the morning after." He said, sitting down beside me.

" Derek... I really don't deserve you. Any other nigga would've took advantage of this moment and what you said is so true. It wouldn't be fair to you for me to sleep with you when I have a whole other man on my conscious." I said laying my head on his lap

"It's okay baby, I completely understand. Are time will come and when it does, it will be a moment you won't forget." He said kissing my forehead.

That night Derek just held me until I fell asleep. So many thoughts ran through my mind, but this time I didn't become overwhelmed. Tj did pop up in my thoughts, but I was able to release those thoughts. I now feel at piece. I know he ain't shit no more, I know he cheated, who he cheated with, and how he truly felt about me. It is now my turn to accept the truth and move on. I will no longer let those memories stay relevant in my life. It's time for a restart, and with the help of Derek... That will be possible.

~ Daquan ~

As I sat there getting my dick sucked in a parking lot by this random nigga that gave me his number at work, I began scrolling through my memories on SnapChat and I came across the day Jason and I smoked together. Seeing that brought a flow of emotions over my body which made me bust all over this nigga face.