the world should know you're mine- stefanielle

eight

stefania

i call her name but she doesn't stop. she closes the door of the guest room and i am left on my bed completely speechless. i almost told her how i felt, but i got too nervous. and she thinks i didn't like it. or i didn't want to kiss her. but that's not what i think at all. that kiss, that kiss was amazing. i've dated other women and men before but no kiss has ever felt like that. and i have had so much fun tonight. me and danielle drank and watched movies and danced. and even jeff likes her. i feel so bad. after a few minutes i decide to check on her. i walk up to the door and knock. "danielle? bella. can i come in?" i get no response. i knock again but no response. i slowly open the door and see her laying on the bed. i can't tell if she is asleep or not so i walk over to her side of the bed. she's laying there cuddled up in the blankets, but she's not asleep. i crouch down so we are eye to eye. as i get closer to her i can tell she has been crying. "bella, oh bella. why are you crying." she turns the other direction and doesn't answer me. i walk to the other side of the bed and sit down. "danielle i didn't mean to upset you. i really didnt. that kiss, oh that kiss." i hear her sniffle. i look at her and lift her chin up so she's looking at me. "that kiss made me feel like i was on top of the world." i watch as her face changes. she slowly sits up so she's facing me.
"what? you, you think that? you didn't hate it? you don't hate me?" a tear rolls down her cheek. i wipe it away and pull her in for a hug.

"no bella, i could never hate you." i hug her so tight for a minute or so. she pulls away and wipes her eyes. "danielle, we met around two weeks ago and you have already greatly changed my life. you have an impact on me and it makes me happy. i wouldn't want to lose that feeling and you so fast." more tears roll down her face and i feel some of my own forming.

"i didnt think i liked girls. but you make me feel different. you make me feel unstoppable. since the first time i talked to you, it felt like something shifted. and when i realized i liked you, i was freaked out." she wipes a tear and looks me in the eyes. "i didn't think you would ever feel the same way." we sit there for a minute in silence.

"barrett knows." i say knowing she will understand what i'm talking about.

"that's why her and jaina talk so much!! they both know and they have been trying to get us to be closer!" she laughs. i could listen to that laugh all day. "so?"

"so bella. let's keep this private. let's see what happens." she nods and lays back on the bed. i watch her pinch her arm and close and open her eyes. "what are you doing?"

"i'm making sure i'm not dreaming!" oh my gosh she is so cute.

"you're not. this is real. we have feelings for each other." she sits back up and looks me in the eyes.

"this will be hard to keep from the girls, but right now it seems kind of fun." she leans in close to me to where our lips are almost touching. i lean in and give her a soft kiss. as i pull away she grabs my head and pulls me back in. so many butterflies in my stomach.

"goodnight bella." i say. every single part of my body wants to slam her against the wall right now, but i want this to be good. i want to take it slow. i have never been so happy. i feel so alive right now. this girl is the girl of my dreams. she's different.

"nooo dont gooo." danielle whines. i think she is still scared from the movie we watched. but that's okay, i can comfort her.

"come in my room. you can sleep there." her eyes light up and she follows me into my room. when we get in there she jumps into the bed and quickly gets into the covers. i laugh at her and join her in bed. we say goodnight once more and are off to bed. i can't sleep very well because there's so much on my mind. mostly danielle. i am excited for what will happen in our future. i think about all the places i want to take her, the food i want to make, the things i want to do with her. i think about her for what seems like forever until i hear a noise. i turn around and danielle is shaking in her sleep. i pull her towards me and wrap her in a big hug. poor girl. she slowly wakes up at looks at me. "you had a bad dream bella. but you're okay, i got you." she moves her face so it's on my chest and i watch as she falls back asleep. i kiss her on the head and before i know it i'm asleep too.