the world should know you're mine- stefanielle

twenty two

monday
danielle

i ended up getting a better phone than i had before, so good for me right. barrett stayed with me until last night. stefania hasn't texted me once. i'm really scared. i'm on my way to work now, we don't have any scenes together today but we will still see each other. it feels so different as i'm always driving to and from work with her. we rarely spend more than one day apart, and i miss her so much. i don't know what i did and i don't know if she's okay. i just want to pull her into a big hug and comfort her until the day i die. i pull into my parking spot to see stefanias car is already here. she must be inside already. i feel nervous as we've never fought like this before, if we are even fighting? we have never not talked this long. i walk to hair and makeup to see no sight of stefanía. "danielle! i'm surprised you weren't here earlier with stefanía, you guys always get here around the same time!" the ladies say. i smile and sit down, fighting tears. they do my hair and makeup and then i head to my trailer. it's pretty cold today, especially for california. i get dressed and sit down to take a moment before going back to set. i try to bottle up all my emotions and then i hear a knock on the door. could that be stefania? i open the door and it's jaina. "oh poor baby are you okay??" she just got back from her trip and me and barrett had already told her everything that happened. "have you seen her yet?" she asks, i shake my head no. she lets herself in and closes the door. she pulls me into the biggest hug. "how's your hand?" she looks down and winces. "ouch."

"yeah, it hurts. they said they would just edit the bruise out." i shrug trying not to cry. "how was your trip?" i ask, wanting to change the subject. jaina sees that.

"great!" she smiles. "i have big news! boris said i love you, and i said it back!!" she squeals. "we both agreed that more dates and small trips would be good."

"that's amazing jaina! i'm so happy for you!" i hug her.

"also i know your little scheme with stefanía and boris, but it's okay." she explains and i smile shyly.

"oops." i laugh.

"come on, let's go." she says and we walk out of the trailer together. we get to set and still no sight of stefania. it's weird, is she avoiding me? if i don't see her today i'll have to see her tomorrow for our scene. we will see how that goes. i walk around the set nervous to bump into stefania but she doesn't seem to be here right now. we begin to film a scene with me and jaina in the station and i feel like someone's watching me. i try to focus on the scene. when it's finally over i turn around and see someone walking away, but i can't tell who. "did you see who that was?" i whisper to jaina.

"no." she shakes her head. "what are you talking about?"

"oh, never mind." i say, maybe i'm just imagining things. we film a lot more scenes before it's finally lunch. i feel so drained today but i hope nobody can see that. i still haven't seen stefania, where is she? i make it to my trailer before breaking down. my makeup is going to need a touch up for sure. the tears burn as they fall down my face. i just don't know what to do. i grab my sandwich and eat it while crying. i look at my phone to see there's about 10 minutes before i should go fix my makeup. i try to stop crying as i finish my sandwich. i look in the mirror and im disgusted. i look way worse than i though, all because i'm crying over a girl. i never thought i would do this. i struggle to fix myself up as i don't want the makeup ladies to ask to many questions. when i've fixed up my makeup as best as i can i make my way to the makeup team. i keep my head down hoping nobody will see me and ask questions. today is just not my day. i get about 30 feet before i bump into something.