Moka Pot

Rejection

[Suzue's Pov]

Would you believe it if I say I really do like you even though we haven't known each other for long?

Matsun's words leave me dumbstruck. I can't seem to pin my thoughts to those words. Does he even realize what he's saying?

It feels like the words I want to say, the thoughts I want to put into word, is somehow just stuck in my throat. I can't even process my thoughts at this moment.

Those words that escaped Matsun's lips, I can't say they aren't words I want to hear, but I can't also deny the fact that I actually wasn't prepared for this.

My body's trembling on its own and I can't stop this shivering sensations. After a few minutes of silence and me wide eyeing Matsun I finally gather all my courage to speak.

"Matsun what're you saying? You're kidding right?"

A breathy chuckle leaves my mouth to the last part as I try to deny those crucial words of his.

"I'm not. Look Suzue. I know you won't believe me even if I tell you for the thousandth time. But I'm truly being honest like deadass honest right now. Okay listen you don't have to believe me, just know so."

"How do you expect me to know this, the fact that you legit said you like me and act like nothing happened?"

"Cause I know the feelings mutual on your part too isn't it Suzue?"

I freeze. How does he have such confidence in saying such a thing when he doesn't even know my part of the story?

But to be fair, I can't really blame him cause whatever he's saying is right.

Yes, I do like him. All throughout the course of time, from the cafe to this day, I've liked him. Obviously it was a crush at the begining, but somehow we got close. And our bond kept growing and growing enough to make us sleep with each other.

But the truth is, I'm scared. I'm scared of putting my hopes and dreams and all my trust and faith in a person again just to end up like last time.

"Wh- what makes you say that?"

"Tell me. Am I wrong?"

"You-"

I can't deny his words. Matsun seems to understand that he's right as he slides his hands to grab mine making me flinch to his reaction.

"Suzue look at me. Look I know what you're thinking. You're thinking I got messed up in the head after last night. But you're entirely wrong. This isn't the first time I'm admitting to myself but first time admitting to you that I really do have feelings for you."

"What do you mean?"

"I mean I've started liking you since the first day."

Silence.

The first day?

"What first day?"

"The day you came to the cafe for the first time. Remember how you were profusely blushing to the slightest of my words. *Chuckle* geez I remembered you as the blushing girl from then on. But who knew you'd come to the cafe after that as well. I was dumbfound when I saw you at the cafe again."

He stops then squeezes my hand a little bit. Not too much to hurt or anything.

"And that's why when you came to the counter to order for the first time that day, I intentionally introduced myself just so I get to know you, at least know your name. Childishness I know but what do you expect me to do when I was struck by Cupid's arrow? I couldn't have asked for more that just to see you. But guess the world works in a mysterious way and look here we are."