Moka Pot

Stay with me?

[Matsukawa's Pov]

When someone confesses to you while they're sober, that's a whole different aspect. But when someone's drunk and says some pivotal things or something that's somewhat close to a confession even, we always assume those are nonsense.

But for my case, it's completely different. Suzue's a really close person to me and I couldn't ask for more than what she is to me.

But now that she's gone and said something like that, even though she was drunk, I can't stop my mind from thinking those aren't just gibberish but rather things she meant truly.

They say drunk words are sober thoughts and although I don't believe in such things, this time I kinda want to believe that this saying is true.

My head hurts. I couldn't sleep well last night from all the jazz. I kept getting woken up by my mind thinking unnecessary things and having weird dreams.

It's so unlike me to think too much about these things. But since it's Suzue, I can't help but keep thinking.

Even thought I'm not sure of these, feelings should I say, of these feelings I have for Suzue, but what I know is they're pretty strong, whatever they might be.

Ever since the last two girlfriends I've had, I gave up on the though or idea of hooking up with girls.

No it's not some trauma for me that I don't want to fall in love or something. But I figured, rather then hurting myself, it's better to just live my life however it goes.

But now that I've met Suzue, things changed. The childish rather ruthless thought I had of not having a girlfriend or a 'someone special', it's kind of fading away.

And to be very honest, I kind of want to spend a whole lotta time with her now that I've met her. I'm still not sure of the feelings I have towards her, but I don't want to think about it much.

I'm pretty sure if this thing is love, it'll stay for longer and I'll come to understand. But if it isn't, I don't want to loose her in any way shape performed.

Not only that, I'm not even sure if the feelings are mutual or somewhat same for her as well. And without her consent, I don't even want to do a single thing.

It's pretty early in the morning and I woke up from the unnecessary chain of thought. No matter how much I tried to push these thoughts away, they still lingered on my mind, making it hard for me to do even a thing rather than thinking about this only.

And now, I just can't seem to fall asleep even though I feel a little tired and having this headache.

Nevertheless I get up and just as I look beside me, I see a peacefully sleeping Suzue. This girl doesn't even have a single idea about what she did to me last night.

Only if she knew.

Without further due, I get up and make my way to Makki's tent to see if he's awake or not cause he wakes up pretty early.

Luckily enough, he was awake and we together make our way to the place I last saw him and Suzue the other day early in the morning.

It's a little cold from the cold breeze but that's adaptable. We sit down at the edge of this clif like part and gossip on our way.

"So uh....do you think drunken words can mean something?"

"Huh? What's this? Why are you asking such a question this early in the morning?!"

"Just cause I'm curious. Now c'mon tell me what do you think?!"

"This about Suzue isn't it?!"

"What?!! Of course not. I just wanted to know that's all."