Euphoria

Part 15 Star Crossed

"I don't like you
Using your logic
And proper etiquette,
When all I want to do
Is love you senselessly."

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Kartik's POV

After having a long shower in hot water, my muscles are feeling relaxed, but my heart is not at rest, it is fluttering as I'm back with her. She is my sukoon. Mere to chehre se hasi hi gayab hogyi thi.. par ab sab...I hope thik ho jaega. Sara is also less gloomy as compared to yesterday. She should always stay happy. It suits her.
Well I'm going to cuddle with my princess as I really need it.

"Kartikkk!! What is this?" She was standing near the bed as I came out of the bathroom with my phone in her hand.

"Jhansi ki raani shant! Kya hua dikha!?" I took my phone and saw my picture which I posted during her questioning hour, yesterday.

"Sanchita ne kaha tha yaar. Because this will shut people's mouth who will ask me about you." I told her with an apologetic look on my face as I didn't want to post anything at first place. But for PR I have to do it.

"Shut their mouths!! Look how much gutter people are saying about me, just because you posted...! You know what!!! Get lost!!" She pointed towards the gate and really? She asked me to get out!? I just jumped back a little as I heard her harsh words.

"Nothing is left between us now! Kartik. I should have understood this. Tum!!! Humari thought process match hi nahi hoti. Mera tumhe break up dedena.. was right. A nice decision I would say!"

"Sara..!" I tried to explain again  only to have Sara, giving me a look of pure loathing. Before I could stop her, she showed me her hand indicating to stop. "No Kartik. I forgot..ke tum nhi badle ho..tum vhi mean disgusting aadmi ho..jise sirf apni PR ki padi hai. I just refuged for a moment yesterday. Tum me khushi dhundhne chali thi..par tum!!!

"You know what, get back to your work, shows, your rumored girlfriends and do whatever shit you want. Galat smjha maine tumhe."  

"You literally think this low of me..!?" İ asked while gritting my teeth in anger.  "Don't fake your emotions in front of me." She shouted and again pointed to the door.

"Just leave Kartik..! Please!" She was teary eyed by then and was somehow controlling... her anger?

I just nodded and replied "is baar mai vapis nahi aaunga.. because you don't deserve me."

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Sara's POV

"And that's what I want. Don't come back..!" I shrieked a cry as he went away.

"Don't ever come back to the most worst thing that happened to you Kartik..! I'm shit and please don't come. I don't deserve you!" I have been mentally slapping myself for all this time. How can I be so careless!? How can I forget that? How can I drag him into the mud I'm already in? I wanted to make a mess of my room and hurl all the things upside down. But more than that, I simply want to gather Kartik in my arms, and say I'm sorry...again..! And again. I am cursing myself for ever saying those words to him.. my words have broken him and his heart...but I have no idea what to do. Though even if I will ever know how to mend with him, I'll never will.

Thank God that I checked his phone and came to know all the hate he was getting just because of a picture he must have posted for PR.
People won't let us live. They were criticising me! İt's okay!! But people have been criticising him and that I can't tolerate at all. And that too when, I know.. how disturbed he is!! Even more than me! And these people who actually don't know us, are commenting shit.
And...I can't even tell him, why I freaked out at him. Why I said all this bullshit!!

How will I live now? Without him?
"Ammaa..!" I called her as. I am feeling lonely and disturbed.

"Sara? Kya hua beta...or Kartik bina bole chala gya? Kuch kaha tumne use..?"

"Ammaaa..!" I was crying so bad that tears got imprinted on my cheeks.

"Sara..beta..chup!! Bilkul chup. Kartik will be fine."

"He will be but we will not be." I said while crying noisely.

"Sshhh! Shant ho jao beta. Tumne hi kuch kaha hai..haina!!!" She was continusely patting my back and trying to pacify me.

"Mummaa!! I'm so bad!!!"

"You are not baba. You both are just star crossed." My mom uttered as she was hugging me close to her.

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Kartik's POV

I have had enough!! Enough of her shit. Sara is impossible. She can't be pleased. One can try but she's a hard nut to crack. I thought that we are back but we never were. Maybe just because of her weak moment she came back and..heat of the moment..or whatever they say.
İt's idiotic. Worthless. I'll not mend things now. Now and never. I thought that she will understand my love and we will be back and..!
But no! She doesn't understand me. Things are maybe over, no no, not maybe. Surely we are over. And nothing is going to help us. Now everything is finished. We have certainly come to an end. Maybe NCB interrogation was a moment that we came together for. Nothing more than that. I'm feeling like I have been slapped. Her words are stinging me as it's a big heart break this time. Whatever hopes I had...shattered... whatever I was feeling for her for past three days..are vanishing. I'm feeling cheap. My tears are brimming and cascading down my face as I'm shocked that I'm feeling such gross and saying these words to myself. Though my verbal heartbreak still don't have any meaning in front of my love for her. Fuck!! 
This damn pain in my chest is becoming unbearable.