Euphoria

Part 13 Breathıng

"Make love to me in Jazz
And then kiss all my blues away."

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Kartik's POV

As I had decided, I'll head to her house now, and will clear the things once and for all. It's too much. There are things I have to mend and she needs to admit. We can't live like this..with pain in our hearts and torment in souls. Living like this seems pathetic. Without her, I'm just a hollow piece of shit. I can't call her by any means, she has not unblocked me and her phone is with NCB officers plus Ibrahim is also not picking up.

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As I entered, opening the door, Sara was on bed. Her eyes red and swollen. As if she's been through hell. Well it was almost hell. She was hugging herself and was curled up. I can tell, her mind is playing back and forth between her questioning hours and trolling and drugs. How can I casually let such a big thing happen to her?

She shook her head in a no as she saw me. I moved closer though. To my surprise, she stood up and came to me, walking with anger in her eyes. Fake anger, accompanied by lies. In this second, she will lie everything. Anybody can tell.

She pushed me. I moved back a little. She again pushed while saying "I. Am. Not. Answerable. To. You."

"It's my past and I can sleep with anybody, I can date anybody and I can do fucking anything. Don't dare to ask and just go!" Sara kept on pushing me and lastly I collided with the wall behind.
We were close but she was lying. "I didn't ask anything Sara." I smelled her after long. Intoxicating she is.

"Tum aaye...!" She didn't complete her sentence as I held her.

"Aaya hu par milne..! Not for discussion of your past." I inhaled her sharply. She is my drug. Her breathe hitched as I did that and the air around us become still. I reached behind her and pulled on hair clip letting them tumble down. She looked up at me with astonishment.

"Close your eyes." I said and luckily she did that. I know deep down she doesn't want to push me away. Her overall look tells me that. She needs relaxation more than sympathy. I pressed my fingers into her temples and my thumb circled the area.
I dove my fingers in her hairs and messaged the back of her head, causing Sara to tilt her head. As she relaxed, I moved to her neck and she melted at my touch.

"I have come here for US! Stop your act Sara..! For once." I pleaded silently. My voice was heavy and she instantly met my eyes. She was tired. I'm tired. She was feeling bad about whatever happened till now. But she should not feel bad. It was bound to happen.

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Sara's POV

I am broken. I don't know what to do. Everything has fallen. The world is shaking around me and I want to hide. I really want to hide.
I was crying profusely when Kartik entered in my room. I knew, he has come to discuss about my past. He's here to be angry on me. Well, that would help me indirectly. He will stay away. I know I have hurt him. He's in pain. We need to discuss. But I have to not let him in.

I pushed him, I yelled as much as I could.

Yeah. " I have come here for US." He said it. And I realised how wrong I'm.
Mai is insaan ko jaan hi nahi pai.
I thought he will question me but he will never.
My world is shaking and he's walking through me. Guiding me. As he was comforting me by caressing my back, my mind slowly began to clear. I was eyeing him through my lashes, while the liquid pull of desire shoot through my stomach.
I can't act more. There are people in your life, only few people, in front of whom, you know, no pretense will work. Guards will come down and the real you will get glorified.
One such person in my life is Kartik. Without any hesitation, I leaned into him. He leaned back to the wall. My trance was broken with his arm around my waist, pulling me more to him. I nestled a little. A frown took over his features as he traced the dark patches beneath my eyes.
I sighed sadly and he snuggled closer. His grip around me tightened as he buried his face in the crook of my neck. I sucked in a breathe and let it out shakily as I placed my hands on his arms. I felt him relaxing. I felt myself light as I was touching him after what seems years.
I sighed as I closed my eyes. Tears ran down as I felt a soft tickling in the crook of my neck with his breathing. I felt alive.

A feeling that I'll pull him with me in the quicksand I'm already in, died for this moment. What existed for me is Only HIM. "Kartik.." I called him in a low whisper and he looked at me, leaving my neck. He had been hugging me for almost two minutes and I felt hollow instantly, though we didn't let go of the hold.

"We need to ta.." before I could complete, he placed his tender lips on mine. Kissed swiftly and retreated immediately.

"I know..! Par.." he said trying to form words.

"Par iske bad!" I pulled him by his collar and smashed my lips on his. Though I know that we will all be good after this and the fear of future took hold of me but I let it go. I let me go.

I sighed as I fondly cupped his face and pressed my lips on his, the only way I can think I can calm myself. Kartik immediately reciprocated with same passionate love and care. He wrapped his arm around my waist. I let out a sigh of contentment and deepened the kiss as he wrapped his fingers around the back of my neck. My fingers made way to Kartik's Amazing hairs as I softly tugged at them.

He let out a soft groan at the back of his throat and softly bit at my lower lip. I moaned and clutched him tighter. Soon we came out of the moment as we were breathless. We were breathless yet breathing. We both were breathing. Again. After so many days of longing, cravings, internal fights and painful love. "Everyone has their past so it's nothing special with you." He told me as I rested my forehead against him and leaned into him. He nuzzled his nose with mine and lastly pressed a kiss on my head.
"I am home." I replied.

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A/N : This update is dedicated to AtikaTanveer  And jiki1589
Sorry for keeping you in wait guys. But I was sick plus online classes are yuck!!!
Sorry!!
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