Euphoria

Part 10 Giving in

"I give in, only because it's You."

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Sara's POV

"Sara!!" When I heard my name from him, just when I was expecting my mother to answer on the phone, I was thrown in a mirage. At first I thought I'm dreaming but when he again uttered my name, I realised that it's no lie, but reality. He was on phone. Kartik must be at my house. Oh my god!!! I do want him but not now!! Just to avoid all this only, I have broken up with him and he can't ruin this all. No! 

He asked multiple questions about me, where am I? If I'm okay or not!? Even after my such rude behaviour and Orry's harsh comments, he is here. God! What have I done in my life, that I got him by my side.

"Kartik shut up!!! Mujhe tum jese insaan se koi bat ni karni." I tried to act arrogant with him but might be, it's all going in vain. As soon as he said That 'Mari jaa rahi hu mai usse baat krne ke liye' I shuddered because I know it's true but I still can't express this to him. Not now. And never.

He was asking me how it all happened but I was just complaining that he doesn't care. And we both knew it's a lie. God!! Why are you testing me this way?
Kartik kept on asking and ultimately a part of me let go. I softened though I never intended to.

"Sara mai hu tumhare sath..akeli nhi ho tum." He assured me and I was wondering how much more sweet and nice a person can become. Yeah. Love makes you all this. And when Kartik is in love, you can just wonder how it's going to be.

Realising that I should act stiff with him, I kept on yelling at him that I doesn't care what he feels about me. But he was adamant that I'm lying. He even yelled back at me, once. I deserve this I know. But what can I do. He should leave my house. There must be so much of media in front of my house and he still managed to be there with maa.

"Tum me thoda bhi dimag hai Sara?" He surprised me with his question.

"Huh?" I wondered what he's trying to say.

"Kyuki agar hota to tum ye befizool ki acting nhi karti. Get a life! Ghar aao mai yhi hu..jab tak tum ni aaogi." He replied as if it's his last and final decision.
No ways!
I tried to make him understand but he was not flinching.
Use kyu samajh nahi aata ke uska itna keh dena bhi mere liye kaafi hai.

"Kartik ye sab jhut hai isliye ye sab jyada din ni chlega. Try to understand. Go!!" I pleaded as he wasn't listening to me. Why he's so tough? I understand his concern but what about my concern for him.
I even made it clear to him, that we will never reconcile and..that I'm never coming back to him.

Par vo sunta kahan hai meri. When I was about to explain him further, his words again made me fumble and my heart skipped a beat.

"Okay fine! Do what your heart says but please mujhe ab at least is time khud se dur mat kar. Please!!"

"We will part ways as you want after this..but abhi nhi yaar. I want to be here with you please!!" I sobbed as he said all that. Why is he doing that? Why he's so soft with me, at least when I'm so harsh to him? Why he just not go away? How should I explain him that I'll handle it. I can fight this situation but only when he stays out of it.
"Kartik. Please!! Stop it!" My voice automatically changed. And to my no surprise he continued, seeing this as an opportunity. He must be thinking that I have loosened up.

"Please what Sara! Tryna understand. You don't need me fine. But I need you. Is that difficult to understand!? To comprehend!? Tell me."

"No it's not difficult. I know how much you need me. And I also want you to know that I just want to hug the hell out of you...And never leave again." My heart wanted to form these words but my mind volunteered just shit.

"Kartik fuck off!" I sighed and put off the call.

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Author's POV

Kartik was patiently waiting for his princess to return. He decided in his mind, that at least for now, he won't let her distance herself from her.

"Is baar vo nhi hoga jo vo kahegi. Kyuki I know vo bhi ye nhi chahti " Kartik muttered to himself.
He hasn't eaten anything since evening and it's almost one in the night, and she still hasn't returned yet.
He's pacing back and forth in her room. He has been missing Sara. It is often said that it is one of the most painful thing in life to miss someone…and that is what exactly happening with Kartik. It's tough to wait for her, because he knows how much they love each other. And amidst all this the separation seems futile. It's worthless.
There's a silent ache in his heart which is definitely unbearable as he opened her cupboard and hugged one of her kurti, the white one. Not only that, all Her clothes are scented with her aroma. He could feel her but can't touch her. Is she a zephyr? Maybe yes.

He's craving for her presence but he's at splits. In this situation when she has been accused of something very terrible, he..can not just meet her and look into her eyes and explain how badly he wants her at that point of time…
He's here to comfort her and tell that everything will eventually fall into place. And he's here to assure her that he's here for her always. No matter what.
For past many days, he haven't seen her in person and henceforth the thirst of meeting her has turned into desiderate.

Outside her mother and Ibrahim were also awake. So he thought of going outside to ask about her.

"Mam...uggh maa! Sara kab tak ghar aayegi..?" He fumbled because habits take time.

"I don't know beta.. vo phone bhi nahi utha rahi hai. Maybe Covid testing ki vajah se vo late ho rahi hai." Amrita answered back, highlighting the massive pandemic going on.

"Yeah maybe!" He replied all tensed.

"Mujhe to bas is baat ki tension hai ke kal uski hearing hai." Ibrahim uttered as he was patting his mom's back , who is crying silently.

Meanwhile Kartik placed a hand on Ibrahim's shoulder and forced a smile. "Mai yhi hu don't worry!"

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Around 12 in the noon next day, Sara called Amrita and informed her something very serious.

"Kya karu mai is ladki ka!" Amrita yelled while crying and Kartik rushed out of the room.

"Kya hua maa? Kya hua Ibrahim?" He asked.

"Sara ghar nhi aa rahi..vo ek hotel thehri hui hai.. Mumbai to kal hi aa gyi thi." He told Kartik.

"Kya? Par kyu?"

"Ye nhi bataya usne..bas ye kaha ke vo vhi se hearing ke liye jaegi..or hum use vahi mile. Par ghar vo nhi aayegi." As soon he told him what Sara said, Kartik heard what Sara hadn't said too.
He nodded while rubbing his hands over his face.

"Fuck! Aunty!! I mean..! Maa aap Sara ke pas jaiye..uske hotel. Or mai bhi ghar hokar aata hu." He said.

"Tum nhi chal rhe beta?"

"Mai jarur chalta..even ghar aaunga..kal..but abhi..vo actually...mummy ka phone aaya tha..unki tabiyat thodi kharab hai. Mai aata hu unse..milke.

Aap..
Aap chinta mat kijiye. Kuch bhi problem ho..I'm just a call away." He tried to control the tears that were daring to escape his eyes in front of both of them.
Then he left her house as secretly as possible. "Today I gave up, not tomorrow Sara!" He muttered while he was heading home.

Just one thought was running in his mind..
She is his weakness and she knows this very well.