the truth about...me????

the night i lost my heart

do you know the feeling of hopelessness? the way life makes you feel like nothing in just a second. the world moves on and the kids laugh but you know that your heart will never mend. in this one second i lost the faith i tried to keep alive and the heart that kept me alive. in this one second i knew that my father has won the war. the angels have left me and Micheal is nowhere to be found. Sean lies on the floor bleeding to death and i was being dragged to hell...

2 days earlier...

i lay in my bed thinking  about tonight. the night Sean and i can actually go on our date. i got up and dreesed in a hurry. i went through the usual routin. getting coffee then go for a walk then meeting Sean. Sean, the wat his faded jeans look as he walked down the road to meet me. thats all i have dreamt of for the last 4 years and yet i still cant believe that it came true let alone that he had feeling for me. i tried to look as if i didn't care about what he was saying about tonight but deep inside i was on sizzling with excitment. the way he tucked a srayed hair behind my ear. his fingers lingering on my cheek made me wish to stay in this way in this moment. still i knew that i had to leave gruding my way to my house i got in only to find Micheal smiling. i swear one day i will do all that is in my power to really understand him.

"hey, whats up?"

" you tell me. you seem to be holding another heart there."

" what are you talking about?"

" i'm talking about the fact that Sean can't breath at the moment without you."

" will you shut up? this is something private nothing that you and i are suppossed to be talking about."

" you might think that but i'm an angel the scent of love attracts me and makes me want to know everything. sorry"

he said that with that smile still on his face. i felt embarrassed for some reason and went straight to my room. i looked into the mirroro and saw that i had to start on for the date...

NOT SO FAR INTO THE FUTURE..

the air itself was felt with blood. the blood of my heart. i took one more lok at Sean laying there and that was it. my father will pay for it. my father will die.

i took the sword and ran straight to him and blunnged it into his chest. he yelled and disappeared in a heap of fire and smoke. i knew that i didn't kill him i just wounded him deeply. i looked around again. the demons started to scatter in all  directions. i in my turn ran back to Sean's side. i had to do something i had to have a happy, very happy thought...

FLASHBACK

i was looking out the window in clear irratation. where was he? i looked at the clock he is 10 mintues late and on our first date. whats arong with him?

just then i heard a car pull over and i litrally stuck my head out the window to see. there was a limo and Sean was standing in front of it with a dozen red roses. my favorite color. i couldn't believe it. i saw Micheal looking outside the other window and laughting really hard. i never heard him laught that hard before. maybe he finally cracked...

i was hasitant as i walked out the double doors to face him...

NOW...

i spread my hand on top of his heart where the demon hit him. the light was strong thakns to the memory. i kept my hand just inches from his chest and saw the light speard to  feel the entire park where the fight broke off. for a second it stayed then all turned black. i thought i messed up and truly have lost him when a faint whisper escaped his lips.

"Maya are you save?"

that was all he said. not that he was sad for afraid from what happened or even that i was the cause of his death. i couldn't stop my self as i felt the tears rolling down my cheeks and into his face. the face that i truly love...