Broken Clocks

Is It Over Right Before It Even Began ?

Mnqobi had his arms wrapped around her waist spinning her around as she laughed and begged him to put her down he did and made her twirl . She turned back to face him and said something to him .They giggled in unison as they disappeared into the house . I stood there as tears rolled down my cheeks , i knew it !  This was a bad idea ! I should've trusted my gut feeling. I ran back to my car and drove like a madwoman to my apartment.

As soon as i arrived at my place i threw myself on the bed and fresh tears washed down my face . Why did i let him in ? Why did i have to allow him into my life like that ? I basically broke my own heart. I grabbed my cellphone and blocked his number. 

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i woke up in the morning and my head was hurting. My eyes were red and puffy well that's what you get for crying yourself to sleep for a man. I got ready for work and applied a lot of make up to hide the cracks on my cheeks. I checked the time '08h00' oh no ! I was late i drove like a madwoman and as soon as i arrived i found Mr K in my office sitting on my chair

Me : Mr Khoza , morning sir

He got up from it and sat on the edge of the table with his arms crossed

Mr K : Morning Miss Mahlangu , you late

Me : i know sir and I'm very sorry sir i assure you it won't happen ever again

He nodded and tilted his head to the two case files that were on the table. 

Mr K : You need to visit those two schools this week and i need the reports by Friday 15h00 sharp on my desk

I nodded and he left. As soon as he closed the door behind him i placed my bags on the table and looked at the files. Just what i need two schools in one week,  great . I sat down and got started on my work . Time flew by very quickly  and it was lunchtime i didn't feel like anything so i continued with my work and Thabi threw herself in my office and placed a McDonald's goody bag on the table

Thabi : and then what happened to you during lunch?

Me: i have a lot of work

Thabi looked at me for some time

Thabi : have you been crying?

Me : No..

Thabi: Ndaloenhle

I threw my head back as i felt tears threaten my eyes, Thabi got up from her chair and came round my side as she embraced me in a hug

Thabi : aaawwww baby , it's okay let it all out.

I cried for a good 10 minutes . I let it all out. I pulled myself away from her and grabbed a facial tissue.  I wiped my tears away as Thabi poured me a glass of water. I gulped it down and she went back to her chair. She was questioning me with her eyes.

Me : So...i drove to Mnqobi's place and...

I feel tears threatening my eyes again. Thabi holds my hand into hers. I take a deep breath.

Me: i went to his place and he was with a girl , he had her in his arms spinning her around. They looked happy , like a family and i know things weren't serious between us but he made me break down my walls why did i have to let him in

More tears run down my cheeks I'm a mess right now . Thabi embraced me in another hug until i clamed down . We went to the bathroom so i could clean up my face. I washed my face with cold water removing all the make up i had on , anyone who looked my way now could tell that I've been crying my eyeballs out. Thabi handed me a paper towel and i dried it off . I turned to face her as she placed her hands on my shoulders

Thabi : I'm so sorry baby , Mnqobi will pay for hurting you like this but it doesn't make sense the last time i checked the guy doesn't have a wife nevermind a girlfriend

Me :Thabi i know what i saw okay ! And I'm done with him

Thabi : it's okay it's okay.

After a few minutes we returned back to work . Mr K's assistant came and said that her beloved boss demands that i submit a report that was only due the following day . I really hate that man and his annoying assistant who walks around as if she owns half of this place just because she's fucking the CEO . I told her to give me a few minutes to wrap it up. As soon as i was done i got up in an attempt to deliver it to Mr K's office but as i was about to grab the door handle i realised my signature was missing i turned back to grab a pen . The door opened

Me : Relax Carol I'm done

Silence. That's a first that girl is always running her mouth. I suddenly felt a hand brush me on my back . I knew who it was , his cologne sold him out.  It was intoxicating. I turned around and there he was , dressed in a maroon suit with a white shirt and black loafers. He looked good but that didn't change anything.  He revealed his white perfectly aligned teeth

Mnqobi : MaZulu

I smiled faintly not because of how he addressed me but how it was so simple for him . To address one woman as your wife  during the day and go back to sleep in the breasts of another one at night .

Me : Mnqobi , what are you doing here ?

Mnqobi : I'm here to take you out to dinner, i booked us a table at The Eat and i know you love that place so pack up so we can go

Me: No thank you i have a lot of work now if you can kindly excuse me i have to get going

I walked to the door and turned to look at him

Me : oh and please close the door on your way out thanks.

I left him there , the nerve that man has . I dropped the report on Mr K's desk he wasn't in , he's probably in his car having his dick sucked by that floozie. I walked back to my office and Mnqobi had left  . I continued with my work. Later i went home , took a shower and made myself the one pot meal Sis Zandi taught me . I decided to video call Nelisa i missed her and it's in times like this when i need her the most. Don't get me wrong Thabi is an amazing friend but she doesn't understand. I need Ney right now.  After three hours of talking with Ney i read up on one of the schools i was visiting the following day and picked out an outfit. I picked out a dusty pink suit with a white shirt and nude heels. My phone vibrated i checked it and there were WhatsApp texts from Mnqobi

"I hope you had a good day "

"Why aren't you answering my calls?"

"Are you okay ?"

"Are we okay ?"

"You were acting very strange today"

" Did i do anything"

" please talk to me Cuppy"

I just left him on read and went about my business. As soon as i was done i climbed on the bed and it was lights out for me.