Broken Clocks

The Kiss

It's Sunday morning and I'm in the kitchen making myself a cup of coffee. Mnqobi didn't come home last night and his phone wouldn't go through each time i called him . I sat on the high chair sipping on my coffee as i went through our traditional wedding pictures , when did it all go wrong? Just as i was staring at it the door opened and Mnqobi walked in. I turned my face back to my phone . "Morning " , i didn't say anything. I got up from the high chair and placed the empty cup on the sink. "Ndalo ngiyaxolisa  " i turned around and looked at him , "uyaxolisa ? No I'm sorry Mnqobi ,  I'm sorry for not being woman enough I'm sorry for ukuba nesinyama -" , "baby please-" , "no Mnqobi angisho it's all my fault so I'm  sorry for not being able to carry to full term! I'm sorry that Nkanyezi is not around , I'm so..sor..." i break down , he comes around to give me a hug but i push him back "is that what you think of me Mnqobi ? When you look at me is that what you see ? A broken woman who can't fulfil her duties ? " , " Baby-" . I put my hand up as more tears run down my face. I walk up to the bedroom and lock myself in . I lie in bed as Mnqobi knocks on the door several times. My phone vibrates it's a text from Nelisa  , "lunch with Thabi @ 14h00 , The Eat ? " i look at the text for a few minutes.  I could use a day out but i won't be able to deal with them feeling sorry for me but then again they my friends and i need a friend right now . I texted Nelisa back that I'd pull through.  I checked the time it was 10h00 , i still had a few hours . A nap would do me good right now. I closed my eyes and drifted away .

It's 12h00 and I'm sitting on the bed lotioning my body . I got dressed in a navy blue long sleeved above the knee cotton dress with black and white Nike Zoom sneakers. I put on a Brazilian lace front and tied it up into a bun ,  i needed a fresh haircut asap ! I applied some masacra and lipgloss only, i didn't feel like make up.  I grabbed my black side bag and i was good to go. I walked to the kicthen and Mnqobi was sitting on the high chair with his head and arms on the counter . I grabbed an apple and he lifted his head up , "baby can we please talk ngiyak'cela "

Me: we'll talk mangbuya ( when i get back)

Mnqobi :Ndalo please-

Me : mangbuya Mnqobi.

I walked out and jumped into the car. I arrived at The Eat 30 minutes later . "There she is ! " Thabi screamed as she got up to give me a hug

Me : Hey chommie

Thabi : I've missed you man

Nelisa : break it out nam i need a hug bathong.

Me: so needy

We giggled and i turned to her and hugged her as well. I sat down , Nelisa was beside me and Thabi was opposite her . We ordered.

Nelisa: how have you been chom yam ?

Me: ah what can i say , I've seen better days.

Thabi : and Mnqobi yena unjan ?

Me: haii chommie Mnqobi and i have been fighting like crazy nje , all we do is get on each other's throats you know and it's getting draining I'm tired it's all too much for me

Thabi: fight for your marriage chommie  , you can't give up just like that , and i think you and Mnqobi should go for counseling.  You guys need it

Nelisa: yeah and remember that we also here for you neh

I nod as the waiter places our orders on the table

Me : thank you so much guys , i appreciate all the support kakhulu ! But can we get to the eating part now ?

Nelisa : yinto oyaziyo vele leyo ( that's all you know )

I took out my tongue at her

Me : anyways how are the kids ? How is Thami ? How's work and wena Ney any new man in your life?