Matching Key (JoongNine AU)

Code XXIX

Joong

Six months. It had been six months that I was living together with this beautiful person who was sleeping in my arms. His naked skin, felt warm and inviting. I should have waited for him to wake up before I made my move, but I couldn't help myself from biting his soft, rounded cheek playfully.

"Emmmm, five more minutes...", he whined and snuggled more into my embrace. I just smiled, laid back down and pulled him atop of me, so he could sleep on my chest comfortably. It was not just five minutes as he said, unconsciously, I fell asleep too. We woke up, and laughing sheepishly, looking at the swarm of lights that came through the window, as soon as the curtains were pulled apart; it was already afternoon.

I pushed Nine to take a shower first, said I couldn't control my urge if we do it together. Nine who felt that the tiredness from last night was yet to ease, scurried into the bathroom, which earned my delightful laughter. When the door was tightly close, only then, I looked down at my wrist, and sighed heavily. There was only, a single line, left.

I wished we had more time. But, no matter how badly we tried not to think about it, to just live and love to the fullest each day, it would still come to the same ending, after all. I had been delaying enough, but a single line was a warning to not linger anymore. I couldn't take a chance to wait for another day, for I am not sure, how long a single line, could last. Though I deeply loved Nine, once upon a time, us of the future, had made a huge sacrifice first, to create a chance, though slim, for me to serve a bigger purpose now.

I took my phone, and look at a list that I'd saved, once again. This list was written, on the day that I searched on what a couple or lovers do. I did most of them already, little by little, to the delight of Nine, who was happy to teach, tease, but also patient with my clumsy efforts. It seemed, the list, wouldn't be able to be completed. He would need to find someone else, to finish the list with; ah, not that I would share this with anyone; caused I guess, for others, it would just come naturally; to love and to express it beautifully too.

The only time that Nine took a lead, was when he insisted to tell me the answer to my own question. Only then I understood, that kind of kissing, not only won't make you fall asleep, but would then lead you towards more stimulating, vigorous activities that consumed half of your energy after you're done. It was intoxicating; becoming addictive as hell too, ever since.

I'd planned so many things to say, when the day finally come for me to go; but yet, now, all I felt was a numbness from any emotion; except sorrow. I couldn't imagine, how devastating it's going to be, for Nine later on. I grabbed my hair in exasperation, turning it into a haphazard mess.

I couldn't conjure any made up excuses, caused then, Nine would wait for me to come back home, and yet, I won't. This time, there'd be no more return, caused time would only exist as a single, continuous line, without any parallels, to be controlled and messed upon.

Nine

I put the shower to a full blast, but all I saw, was my own tears. I had sensed since last night; when the love making seemed to be thoroughly done; liked remembering one's body inch by inch, even to the last mole. He was savouring every second, and that, led me to the understanding, that the time had finally come, for him to go.

I took my time in the shower; waited until my heart calmed down; and the redness in my eyes, was not that obvious. I should send him off with a smile, so the last memory he'd have of me, is a happy one. With only a bathrobe on, I walked out from the shower, but he was not on the bed. Alarmed, I pulled the bedroom's door open with shaking hands, almost afraid that I'd find no one at all.

I was right. There's no sound coming from the empty hall, nor the kitchen. My feet felt weak, and my breath was getting heavy. I sat down on the floor, leaning my back on the white wall and closed my eyes. This is not real, this is not happening. How could he just leave me liked this.

I swallowed back the tears, before they could fall down. I had made a promise to send him off with a smile, so I shouldn't cry. I stood up and walked liked the life was sipped out of me, going back into the bedroom and lying on the bed, inhaling the lingering scent that he left on the pillows. Ah, I hoped this scent last for a long time, caused this, was my only comfort, for now.

I laughed bitterly, because he, once again, didn't understand; that leaving me without saying goodbye, is more hurtful, than telling me truthfully, that this day, is the end of everything.

Damn you...you..heartless, Archen!.