Grown Enough (On Hold)

Chapter One

— sorry for the wait . 🥺

Can I have you for a minute?
Don't get shy cause my heart's in it
When I say you got me strung out
I don't know and I can't call it but whatever it is you've got it
No babe, without a doubt,
yeah
Never been the one to cling and I don't like to be needed
But now I guess that's all changed
That's why I get mad at your folks
Cause I don't want you to go
No babe, I want you to stay
You can say, I'm trippin' but
I'm stingy and I can't hide it
Wanna keep you all to me,
I'm selfish, why try to fight it?
You're the only one with the only love that's strong
enough to claim me
So please forgive me,
I'm just stingy but how can you blame me
Ginuwine — Stingy

Flashback
(6 months after Adelynn was born)

Aaliyah

I woke up in the same weird energy, off mood that I've been getting occasionally, more often here lately.

I went into the bathroom and sat on the toilet, sighing.

Once I was done, I wiped and sleepily looked at the tissue but I had to open my eyes wider, just to make sure I was seeing this red blood.

Ugh, I should've known.

I began cleaning myself up and began searching for pads or tampons but I couldn't find either.

I was growing irritated looking for them.

"Are you serious?!" I damn near yelled at him, kicking his socks towards him.

"Babe, it's just a pair of socks, I'm sorry." He apologized, picking them up.

But it wasn't just a pair of socks to me.

It was like the cherry on top of all the bullshit.

"All I asked you to do was put them in your basket. That's all I fuckin' asked you to do!" I kept yelling.

I was arriving at a point of no return, the vein in my neck was pulsating and I wanted to slap the shit out of him just because he was the only person near.

"You really mad at me over a pair of socks?" He questioned.

I took some deep breaths as I felt a lump in my throat and my eyes began burning.

I've never been the type to break down so easily but I was tired.

I've been going for so many weeks and I'm just tired.

"I ain't think so." He gently pulled me to him.

I tried to explain but I just broke down.

"Shhh, we can talk about it later." He pulled me into the bathroom and only let me go to turn on the shower water.

"Whatever it is, we can fix it." He kissed the top of my head.

My soul was calming down just from the way he was talking to me.

"My period is on, I need to go and get some pads." I sighed, wiping my face.