FROSTBURN || Min Yoongi

Chapter 14

"Aera, I though we were friends."  Hoseok groaned, holding his stomach causing me to smirk.

"What did you do to get her so worked up hyung?" Asked jungkook, finally joining us.

"He squished me." I answered.

"I'm not even going to ask how that happened. Anyways, practice is over shall we head back?"

"Let's wait for Yoongi. He should be here soon." Hoseok said making me look up.

The farther I stayed away from Yoongi right now, was better for me.

"I'll take my leave. See you guys later." 

They waved at me as I left the practice room.

After arriving my room, I quickly took off my clothes and got inside the shower. My mind drifted off to the events that has happened just the other night. I shouldn't be thinking about these, shouldn't be thinking about him but I couldn't get it out of my head.

Finishing my shower, I got out and wore my clean clothes that they've provided me with and left the room to eat dinner with the others.

"Unnie!" 

I smiled at Yuri waving at me from the table and sat next to her. The others were also around the table and they all sent me smiles.

"Guys, I have to say something..." Taehyung started making all our focus turn to him.

"Somethings are not right lately, Kids from code 3 have been disappearing."

"Yeah, I've noticed that too. Every practice time, some kid gets taken and doesn't return." Namjoon added making us go silent.

"There's nothing we can do about that is there?"  Jimin asked.

"Escape?" Namjoon said, making me gasp as he read my mind.

"What? Namjoon what are you talking about? You know there is no way-" Jin started, but got cut off by Namjoon.

"Not me, her. That's what she was thinking in her head..."

"Is there really a chance that we could actually escape?" Jungkook asked.

"Can you imagine the life outside? The birds, the sky, grass and freedom-"

"You all are delusional. Forget it, we're not getting out." Yoongi said, cutting Yuri off.

"And why the hell not?!" I yelled.

I was mad. Mad at how he always tried to get in the way of stuff, how he always said things to effect people so negatively.

"Do you actually think you could possible escape this fucking place. Stop acing like a child and think logically for once!" He yelled out.

"That's funny coming out of you." I scoffed under my breath but it was enough for him to hear me.

"Guys, calm-" Jin started only to get cut off.

"There's no fucking way you could ever escape. Just get that fact in your head."

"I fucking would have if You didn't burn the shit out of me that day!"

"See this is why you don't have friends! You do reckless shit, only thinking of yourself and put other people in danger! If we try to escape, do you think everyone on this table will make it? You're so fucking selfish you know that? I'm sure you've put people in danger like this before!" 

"Yoongi! That's enough." Jin yelled.

I couldn't say anything back. I couldn't give any reactions. I only realized the tears as they started falling down my face. I stood there frozen.

What hit me the most was the fact that he was right. I had hurt someone. Someone very special had died because of me...

"Aera, look I-" Yoongi started, with regret clearly shown on his face.

"You're right. I'm selfish."

I wiped the tears from my face with the back of my hand and walked away from the table to the open area outside. I needed to get some fresh air, needed to clear my head.

"Noona, noona! We're free-"

*Bang!*

No, no, no, no..... NO!

"Noona..."

*Bang*  *bang* *bang*

"I'm sorry... I'm so sorry.." I choked out at the memory that played in my head.

The lump in my throat wouldn't go away. I couldn't cry, I couldn't speak, I couldn't swallow.

I didn't realize someone had sat next to as I was busy trying to easy the pain in my throat. As soon as I realized someone was here, I quickly tried to wipe my tears away.

Jin held my wrist, stopping me from wiping them.

"It's okey to cry you know. It shows that you're human."

I stayed silent.

"We all make mistakes Aera. We all hurt people we love at one point in life and that's okey. Whatever happened is not your fault, You're not like that."

"You don't know me.." I sniffed out.

I felt so week right now that I hated myself for it.

"I do. I see the way you care about the others without actually telling them, I see how your eyes sparkle when everyone is being cheerful, I see the smiles you try to hide every time you're with us." He looked at me and turned my shoulders to make me look at him.

 "Whatever happened or what ever mistake you've done in your past, was not your fault. It was the fault of the people who pushed you to be lıke this. I forgive you Aera, I forgive your past, so please forgive yourself as well."

I broke down into a sob as I hung my head low. He quickly pulled me into a hug and let me cry in his chest.

"I don't care about Yoongi but you have 6 brothers now and a sister. We'll always be there for you, don't you ever forget that. You're one of us whether you like it or not missy." He said making me chuckle in between sobs.

After a while, when I finally calmed down, I pulled away from Jin.

"Thank you."

"Always."

He ruffled my hair and we both sat there, staring up at the stars that seemed to be shining brighter tonight.