AIN'T MY FAULT | taekook

Chapter 53

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"Don't leave me." Jungkook held tight on the younger as the male looked up at him. Taehyung had a distance look in his eyes, soft yet wavering.
"It's getting late. Please." Taehyung said as Jungkook looked desperately at him, with fear in those dark orbs. They had stayed silent in each other's arms for long, and Taehyung had voiced that he should head back, but the elder only held him closer.

"Stay here. With me." Jungkook forced as he cupped the male's face in his big veiny hands.
"I can't hyung. I have- I have a lot in mind. I need time-time to think about all this." Taehyung whispered and Jungkook only clenched his jaw.
"There's nothing to think about. Why are- you said you won't leave me!" He rasped and Taehyung closed his eyes, sighing.
"I'm not gonna leave you hyung, but I need little time. Please." Taehyung's hand went softly to place on Jungkook's cheek, the male closing his eyes at the touch.

"I'm sorry." The elder hoarse and Taehyung smiled a little and kissed the male on the cheek.
"I'm sorry too." He whispered against his face and Jungkook pulled him close and he kissed him on the lips hard. Pulling away, breathing hard, his hand around the other's back of the neck.
"Be safe. And meet me first in the morning at University." Jungkook sighed as Taehyung nodded and took his back, turning he moved but a hand on his wrist stopped him.

He looked back and saw a raw emotion in Jungkook's eyes. He moved closure and pressed himself against the younger's frame.
"I need you more than anything. I don't deserve you, but please. I couldn't let you away." Taehyung breathed hard as the words and pulled away, slowly moving back and smiling, turning he walked out of the door, leaving a stiff Jungkook in the dark isolated world.

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Taehyung opened his apartment, walking inside he switched on all the lights. Throwing his bag on the couch, he pulled the shirt over his head. Slipping out of the pants, he entered the bathroom, turning on the hot water shower. The warm water made him moan as he closed his eyes, wiping the water as he pushed his hairs back, his skin redding by the force of warmth.

The day repeating in his head as a loop, twenty minutes later, he walked out, a loose t-shirt on his thin body as he laid on the bed, opening his phone he saw a message of Jungkook if he reached safely, replying a quick yes he closed it. Rubbing hands on the face he pulled the blanket on his cold body, nothing but Jungkook on his mind. The fact that the other is married, his husband dead, is still hard to digest.

Slowly all made sense. Why is the elder always stoic? Always sad yet dark. The longing in his eyes as he stares at the sky. The reason for his loneliness. The reason he had shut himself. The reason he won't love Taehyung.

The younger gulped as he turned to the other side. There's a lot to think about. Lots to digest. Lot to suffer and lot to believe. His mind plays the words on darkness in the pit of hollow. He sighed as tried closing his eyes, for the sleep to overcome. But it seems hard today. Not like it's really easy these days. Tears leaving the swollen eyes, as he cried for hours in the sleep.

Morning, he woke up. He had just fallen asleep a few hours back. He looked at the clock, eight in the morning. He groaned and sat up. Uni starts in an hour, still he had no will to get up and go. His mind is more tired than his body. Even if he attended the lectures he knew he wouldn't ever understand a word. Thinking, he decided to take a self holiday. He knew Jungkook would be unhappy about his absence, he texted quickly to him that he's not feeling well and is resting for the day.

After hours he had made a decision. He called Hoseok and asked him to come over. The other had come fifteen minutes later, worried why the younger called him on class day.
"What happened Taehyung?" Hoseok voiced as he sat beside him. Taehyung took a breath and turned to him.
"Hoseok I'm gonna tell you something- and I want you to listen to me very patiently- please and listen fully." Hosoek nodded as he saw the serious expression.