AIN'T MY FAULT | taekook

Chapter 57

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Taehyung adjusted the seat belt as Mr. Jeon got in the car, it was pretty dark outside, college hours finished long ago. Jungkook started the car and drove to Taehyung's apartment. The younger has his eyes fixed outside, fidgeting with his fingers, his mind back to the elder's room. 

Taehyung doesn't know why but when he thought Jungkook did something like this for him, a little feeling bubbled inside him. The feeling of hope. Hope that if the elder can't even see him hurt a little, then maybe, just maybe one day he will love him, truly love him. Just the way the younger is falling deeply for him. 

He saw how shocked Jungkook was after they broke the kiss but when he saw the soft smile on the younger's face and a small thank you, he wiped Taehyung's lips and made his hair neat, hugging the small figure. They stayed like that for a long time, both wanted to ask questions, but no one initiated. At last Jungkook pulled away and took his hand, walking them out of the college.

"What do you want to eat?" Jungkook's voice broke Taehyung from his trance, he blinked and finally turned to the elder. "I'm not hungry." He whispered.
Jungkook, without taking his eyes from the road, sighed. 
"You are a student, you should never skip your meals. Are you okay if we wait and take some takeout?" 
Taehyung smiled sheepishly and nodded.
"Takeout is fine, I-I can order when we get home." He voiced and the elder nodded.

Taehyung awkwardly got out of the car as it stopped, Jungkook behind him. He took a breath and unlocked his door and turned on the lights.
He remembered that they were here for a reason.
They have to have the talk, properly this time.
"I'm gonna freshen up, do you- want something to drink?" He asked Jungkook who had his eyes fixed on him.

"Water is fine." Taehyung nodded and came back with a glass. He then nervously looked around and went inside the bathroom. Jungkook who was on the couch, sighed. He laid his head back and stared at the ceiling. He knew he had to answer the younger's questions, and patiently as the younger had already gone through so much because of him, especially today.

Jungkook rubbed his temples, thoughts running wild. Everything can be lightened or kept in the dark, but he just doesn't want to lose Taehyung, and doesn't want to see him suffer. And make him regret being with the elder.
Taehyung came back, now in a plain t-shirt and sweats, hair a little wet.
"Ummm....should I order now or?" He voiced uncertainty and Jungkook patted the space beside him.

"Come here."

Taehyung, biting his lips, took a seat beside the other, both facing each other. Jungkook took a breath and looked at Taehyung, his hand going to take hold of the younger's slender one. 
"I'm again sorry for today. The things you heard and for your tears. Remember they are not true and forget it completely okay?" Taehyung nodded and looked down.
"Why-But if she comes back and complains against me then?" Taehyung asked in a small voice.
" She'll not. I won't let her, you believe me?" Taehyung looked at the dark eyes and smiled a little. He moved close to the elder and stared deeply at him.

"Hyung, all these past days-I have been thinking a lot. And I don't know- but some moment I want to run away from you, but moments when- moments like this, I just keep falling for you more." Taehyung confessed whole heartedly as Jungkook's facial expressions changed to a pained one.

"And I know you are saying you're not gonna love me because you still love your late husband. But Jungkook hyung- you were the one who came in my life- if you knew- why?! Why did you come so close when you yourself knew this.'' Tears brimmed in Taehyung's eyes. Jungkook held tight to his hand and as he sank all this, avoiding the many voices inside head, he shook his head.