AIN'T MY FAULT | taekook

Chapter 32

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Jungkook opened his house's door, the sound resonating through the room, feet dragging itself till his room, eyes roaming around to take every detail, lingering more on the hand made frames and decorations.
This house was decorated with so much love and all was on their place, all but him.

Life is so much different if you don't have a source to live. Pushing himself in the hot shower, Jungkook closed his eyes, tired red eyes. So much happened in past days, but he can't be hurt by it right? He is the one doing wrong afterall. He hurt the boy. So what if it's hard for him to breath too? It doesn't matter. He matters to no one.

Laying down in nothing but sweats, the cold floor making his back shiver a little, his eyes were focused outside on the starts he can see through the open window, he hai found himself in this position so many time.

Looking up at starts for hours, in just wait for one to fall, just one. So he could make the wish, a simple selfish wish. His love used to do so. Not knowing that Jungkook would beat the star to fulfill his every wish.

His phone kept buzzing beside him, calls and messages from his friends. Friends? Are they really? Yoongi and Jimin. They were Tae's best friends, friends who hated Jungkook. And Jungkook still can't do anything beacuse his Tae only asked one thing, to be friendly with them. And after this three years, he is still trying to, he really is. Just the thread who held their friendship is broken, just like his heart.

Taehyung face suddenly clouded his mind, breath hitching how the image on his Tae that was slowly changed some features, now smiling with more soft face. Jungkook clutched his heart, it's hurting at how hard it's beating.

After he had kissed the boy, he had taken his leave, saying he has to go home, his. He can't sleep there, no. How much comfort and peace the place gave him, he have to return back to his. This was his place, where he could be alone from the world, temporary world. He finds strange solance here. Makes him breath properly.

And though he hate to admit it, the boy is getting used to his touches, is relaxing with him and Jungkook don't want that. He is not going to find love, nor a realationship. It might be cruel, but he is already in love with his Tae, which will never be gone.
He can't love someone else, not even the boy.

Just some comfort he found in arms of the boy won't change that at all. But he also don't want the boy to fall for him,even so far he have to go for that. That boy just needs to know that Jungkook own him. Nothing else, Taehyung don't need to know his reasons. He will not let him know, never. Beacuse if the other will be known to the truth...

He will leave Jungkook, forever.

And Jungkook don't want that. With a broken heart and messed up mind he can't think the outcome. And his greedyness for the boy may be wrong for other's, but he don't care. No one was there when things were wrong for him. And he needs to keep the boy in dark.

In his darkness, close with him. Away from the world.

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The corridors were packed with students and teachers, he walked without looking at anyone, soft sweater hugging his body as he made the way to his class, Taehyung took a deep breath as he passed certain room he was too familiar with.

Waking up today, he felt numb. After Mr. Jeon or should he say Jungkook left him, Taehyung couldn't get any sleep, mind running wild to all the scenarios in future. There was no turning back now, the odd and dangerous thing they have between was now far from forgotten, it had Taehyung attached to it like a leech, can't help it.