AIN'T MY FAULT | taekook

Chapter 30

Long Chap 👀

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The birds outside were chirping, moving in groups to travel to maybe other side of city, the pink and orange strokes of colour around them, the sunset setting gives you a diffrent feeling, a uneasy ending of day but a hope of a new morning tomorrow, people returning to their loved ones, or maybe now going out with them after a long dreadful day.

Taehyung didn't know when the day ended, how all he was there in the arms of other, who held him like several broken pieces, and Taehyung was thankful for that, though the other might be the reason of half of his tears. It's okay. From the day he stepped in this city, things are not normal anymore for him.

Jungkook had made him sit on the sofa, bought a glass of water for him, to his lips, Taehyung gulping it with every beat of heart, the 'what now' question always lingering in mind. Looking up at the same charcoal eyes didn't seem to help, it's either you get lost or you stop breathing, both honestly make his heart ache.

Jungkook moved and sat beside him, Taehyung going stiff at that, the other brought his hand slowly to his face, rough big hand touching his cheek, making him turn to look at the other, and this is so intimate for Taehyung. This type of feeling in not normal for him, people don't do this things with other's whom they have met recently, yet alone have romantic feeling for.

"Are you okay?" The raspy voice asked him, was he okay? Maybe not, who cares. He but nodded his head, a lump still in his throat, he is crying too much this days, it's bad. Jungkook roamed his eyes around his whole face, fingers that held Taehyung's cheek made him feel warm, so diffrent from the gaze.

"Who was that?" Jungkook asked and Taehyung looked wide eyed at the other, who was looking dead in his eyes, still holding his face, they are so close.
"He's my best friend." Taehyung replied truly, eyes moving to search something on the other's face? What? Don't ask him.

Jungkook gave a cut nod, eyes going down, and Taehyung took a breath, this is unusual.
But the other again looked at him, jaw little clenched.
"Do you love him?" That was not something Taehyung expected, his frown making it clear.
"Yeah I mean, as he is my best friend." Taehyung replied unsure, not understanding where this conversation was going.

"Do you love someone?" Jungkook asked again, a lost look on his face, and Taehyung can see how empty his voice was, can a person live with so much sadness?
Taehyung shook his head, he know the question's intention, he know he is asking if Taehyung have someone, and Taehyung is glad he don't.

Jungkook nooded his head again, his hand leaving the other's face and going through his own hairs,  looked at his side, his sharp jaw in view, and Taehyung had never seen such sharp one before.
He thought for a second and moved his body a little, facing towards the elder.

"And if I had someone?" Taehyung know he is being idiot now, asking such things, but the other looked back at him, his eyes the only thing Taehyung can focus on.
"I wouldn't have liked that." Jungkook replied, making Taehyung again to loose his sense, the other is so confusing.

"Why?" Taehyung asked, and he think the other might not answer him, they don't have normal conversation, they talk very little, always leaving him restless.

Jungkook looked up at the ceiling, a deep breath leaving his lips, and Taehyung thought the other might snap, but the answer he got left him sppechless.

"I would go insane, and it's not good for anyone." Jungkook blinked his tears, this is the first time they are having a conversation, and Jungkook should stop this, better before it get worse.