AIN'T MY FAULT | taekook

Chapter 2

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Dark curtains decores the room, not allowing the sun rays to inter inside. The black walls adding more solitude to the room. He don't like light. Light gives him clear view. A view he don't want to see.

His red-rimmered eyes stared at the clock beside his table, waiting for it to show the time to start his day. When it stroked to the particular one, he dragged his feet to get ready for the day. A day he dread so much.

His slounched body was the only moving figure in the apartment, rest all was on its place, maybe from months. If a empty heart ever has to be shown, it must be inspired by this house.

The car ride was in complete silence, uncomfortable one. Very few get suffocated in their own alone silence. The tie around his neck was choking him, just implying that he should die.

As he got in the campus, he ignored all the chaos outside, the students, the happy yelling, the vibes. He hated it. Hated how people are happy around him. It reflects how alone he is.

The way to Principal's office was more worse, as he encountered couples in the hallways, looking at each other lovingly, but he also catched how some students moved aside scared of him, he know students don't like him. And he genuinely wants it that way.

"Ahh Jungkook you're back" Namjoon greeted him as he entered his office.

Jungkook just nodded, and signed the holiday return note.
He can see Namjoon wants to say something, the nervousness on his face gives to that.

"Jungkook you can take a week more holiday you know, it's okay" Namjoon smiled, the nervousness still in his eyes.

"I'm fine" He said. It's a lie he had said numerous times.

"You can also take a half day, I know you are punctual with your work-"

"I said I'm okay" Jungkook looked at the other, eyes empty.

Namjoon still has a look like he is hiding something, but the other don't care. He don't care of things now.

"Okay, But if something happens, come to me okay, I know you are okay but-" Namjoon looked at him with sympathy.

A look he hated the most.

"Namjoon I said I'm fine. I'm getting late for the cla-

"Oh you're back" Jimin entered the office, but why Jungkook thinks that the other has the same look like Namjoon. Not happy by his return.

"I didn't know you will return today" Jimin looked at Namjoon, their eyes showing like they know some thing.

Jimin then cleared his throat and turned towards Jungkook, smiling.

"Jungkook I think we should go out today, let's take a leav- " Jimin tried.

"Jimin, I have classes." Jungkook answered.

"But a day can't dis-"

"I don't want Jimin. I should leave" he looked at the two and exited the office.

Leaving Namjoon and Jimin looking at each other, still nervous.

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As he entered the classroom, the class immediately turned silent, a thing students are aware of. He don't like noice, he come here to teach, and all should do the thing they came for as well, learn.

He placed his bag on the desk, moved in front to look at the students, ready to announce today's lecture.

He roamed his eyes around, making sure no one is taking as he don't like to get disturbed between his lectures, he hates undisciplined students.

As he got a look at all he turned around to take his notes but stopped,

No, it's not that.

It just a hallucination.

no no NO

He turned around again and eyes searching  for the face he know he is just imaging.

But no.

It's real, not a hallucination.

Because there was a boy, sitting at the forth row, looking at him.

It is real.

This can't be happening.

Jungkook don't know what is happening, he tried to breath, intensely starring at the boy, his posture slightly skaking.
He don't want this. His mind playing games with him.

The said boy was looking at him confusedly, not with the look he was known on that features.
This face, this features, it was his most loved possession.

He for a second though to run to the boy, hold him, but no. It's not his Tae. He just someone else. Not Tae. Please.

Who is he???

His Tae is dead, then who is he???

How can he look so much like his love!!!

Jungkook began to shake more violently, the students concerned voices not making to his ears, eyes only focused on the boy, who was now having concerned look to.

"Mr. Jeon are you okay?? Mr.Jeon" a student shouted.

Jungkook looked at him for a second but eyes again turned to the boy, afraid he might disappear.

No no no

Please no

His hands were shaking, mind fogged, heart breathing at a rapid pace.
"I'm....I'm sorry" he mumbled and walked out of the class.

All students were shocked at the behaviour of their normally strict and cold professor.
"Do you know Mr.Jeon?" Jinyoung asked Taehyung, looking at the door.

"No..." Taehyung answered, still not able to process what happend.
"I think he is not feeling well" Jinyoung commented.

"Hope he will be okay" Taehyung prayed, still shivering, remembering the intensity of Prof's eyes as he looked at him.
Taehyung don't know what it is.

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Jungkook ran to his small room, a one every tecaher have for personal free periods.

He with trembling hands locked the door, eyes wavering, he flopped on his knees, legs no longer supporting.

His breathing was uneven, eyes searching here and there, he throat suddenly dry, heart curled like someone stepped on it.

His mind started screaming voices, the one he thought he will not listen again. He quickly crawled towards the drawer and opened his pills bottle, eyes now blurred.

He roughly swallowed the pills, not bothering to drink water. Hoping the pain will go away. It's just a nightmare.
Not real.
But it again came back to him, hurting him with full force.

How can this happen???

His Tae died right, he accepted the fact after so long.

Who is that boy, why he looked exactly like his Tae???

He began thinking things he don't wanna. The ones he stopped with so much difficulty. This only happens in books.

Is he dreaming?? No no no.

Tae...........

He didn't know when tears stared flowing from his eyes, or when his vision turned more blurred.
He just sat there on the floor, still trying to process what his eyes showed him back then.

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