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Nobody's Gotta Know (Seblos and E.J)

Author's note: This last story was requested by @MadsShips its quite a different ship but its a cute story. May be a bit sad. Mention of death of a loved one.

TW: panic attack, death of a loved one, emotional scenes

*Please don't read this if you are not comfortable with this kind of content.

Seb's POV:

I was laying on my bed staring at the ceiling when my phone started ringing loudly. I took one glance at my phone and saw my boyfriend, Carlos calling and immediately picked up the phone.

"Hey Carlos." I mumbled hoping he wouldn't catch my sad tone in my voice.

I haven't talked to Carlos since maybe two weeks. I don't really remember when it all happened but I don't want to remember that night. I just blocked all my friends out and turned my phone off after lying to Carlos and telling him that I was going on vacation and that my parents took my phone away.

"Sebby, I missed you so much. Did you just get home? You haven't replied to my messages in like forever or Kourt's or Nini's. Were you grounded? Why did your parents take your phone away? Do you want to come over tonight? Maybe we can Watch Mean Girls or Matilda for musical movie night since its the last day of winter break? Oooh we should watch Beauty and the Beast. I need to think about the choreography for the waltz. Miss Jenn is letting me choreograph again." I listened to my boyfriend ramble through the phone as I frowned to my phone screen.

The mental scar from that night was too fresh and I wasn't ready to tell Carlos about what had happened two weeks ago or about the recent anxiety attacks I've been having. I just shut everyone out. I didn't think anyone would understand.

"I missed you too. I'm going to go to bed early so that I have energy for school tomorrow. Goodnight, Los." I said sighing to my phone before hanging up on my boyfriend before my anxiety came back again.

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The following day, I arrived at school earlier than usual and got to my first period class before anyone else could. I've always been that awkward gay theater kid who sits in the back of the class but now I have friends and a boyfriend. I've managed to shut them out for two weeks, but I needed time and space to myself to think about what had happened over winter break.

Thankfully, Carlos and I didn't have any classes together this semester so it was easy to avoid him. I had 3rd period art class with Nini but she was too busy talking to Kourtney to notice me. I also had 5th period English with Ricky but I doubt that he had noticed my somber mood.

At lunch, the drama club group had spent most of the time talking about the spring musical which we people were auditioning for after school today, but not me. Carlos nudged me a few times to get me to talk but I continued taking bites of my sandwich while holding his hand as he talked to Ashlyn about something.

I got through the rest of the day without bumping into Carlos or any of our other friends and was so thankful for that. I didn't need anyone bombarding me or questioning me today. I guess I'm not in the mood. I like to hide my feelings its a normal thing but my anxiety has gotten worse since that night.

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"Honey, what's wrong? Aren't you coming to the theatre for auditions?" I heard my boyfriend say to me as I shut my locker and turned towards the exit.

"I'm not feeling well. Maybe next year, have fun Los." I replied to him before giving him a peck on the lips.

"At least come to say hi to Miss Jenn, if you don't feel well after she gives out scripts and role call please tell me. I don't want you to over work yourself." Carlos said as he took my hand and led me to the theater.