On The Hunt

Chapter 36

Well get through this together...

-Johnnie Guilbert (MY PRECIOUS)<3

Percy P0v

 So maybe I was being a little to dramatic. I diden't die but in some ways it felt like it. I wanted to die. I DID die.

Am I confusing you? 

Okay okay. I didn't literally die but in my head I died. And went to heaven. Because what happened to me shot me further into the air then Jesus. 

Mason Drew Degalo but his hand on my chin and he kissed me. Lips on lips his mouth possessed mine...

Mason p0v

After Percy said what he said something clicked in my head. I just watched him break down and freak out in front of me. Percy never freaks out. He's usually the calm funny guy. Smart and graceful decisions. With his brains and calmness and my optimism and stubbornness made us the best of friends. I didn't like that I saw him so broken and vulnerable. The words I never thought I'd ever say in the same sentence with Percy's name. 

Without thinking I grabbed his face and kissed him. I was so confused. I don't really know what I want. I just hated the way Percy's face was twisted in so much pain. As his best friend I felt responsible for making him happy. 

Even if that means kissing him...

When I pulled way Percy's eyes were wide of shock and he looked at me with red eyes. God the memory of him frustratingly confessing his love to me burned in my head. His broken face sketched into my head like a tattoo on my brain.

"I'm sorry Percy," I murmured. I never knew that Percy was hurting so bad because of me. I could so imagine the pain. He felt for me strongly while I was feeling strongly for Teynana. I felt like such an horrible person. "I didn't know... I... I mean why didn't you tell me?"

Percy's face twisted in pain as he pulled away from me and moved over to my bed sitting at the edge of it. He just sat there his face twisted in anger, frustration and disgust. I sat on my bum and crossed my legs.

"I'm not as confident as you Mason. Believe or not I have a horrible at expressing my  feelings. I tried  really hard Mason. There no logical facts to do something like this. I've done all the little confident push starts but they don't work. Love is something I can't master. I can't ace it and it kills me. I've been wondering the same thing for 17 years. Why can't I tell you I love you?" He ended in a whisper as if he was talking to himself. 

"It's just horrible because I have the worst kind of love. The kind that disgust everyone. The kind that's hard to get. Mason, you can't even tell me your not even the slightest bit bothered that i'm gay." His voice broke at the end.  Without hesitation I answered him quickly.

"I don't care if your gay, Percy. It'll take a lot more for me just want to break our friendship off. Being gay is a bad thing."I told him.

"Well if that isn't enough than what about your gay best friend being in love with you?" He looked at me his face angry.

I didn't answer him. I looked down at my hands and sighed. I don't care that he's gay. The fact that he's in love with me isn't bad either. It doesn't disgust me. I never really thought or care about my sexuality. I never needed to stop and think about anything. Could I be gay?

Percy scoffed and turned his head.

"Exactly." He growled. I took the time to study him. His shiny golden hair and strong looking jaw line. With out his big nerd reading glasses his eyes were a bright blue that I was jealous of. My eyes were blue but his were a more brighter blue to me. Percy was.....It feels to weird to say.

"You want me to be honest with you?" I asked Percy. He didn't say anything. He didn't look at me. He didn't move. If he wasn't listening then I wouldn't have known.

"The honest truth is that I don't care that you gay. The feelings you have for me isn't a problem. I don't know how to say that I don't care about that too with out its sounding wrong. What I'm say in I don't know what I am, Percy. Please understand that nothing is wrong with you. I never really thought about my sexuality and if you were scared that I would turn you down then your going crazy. The fact that you said you had no chance in  winning me over isn't true. I mean if you think about it I never made it clear if i like boys or girls-"

"You were in love with Teynana, I'm pretty sure that's clear enough." He said. I guess he was listening. I took a minute to gather up my thoughts. When I kissed Teynana.

"I kissed Teynana." I said and I saw him stiff. Before I could say what I gathered next he whipped is head to me thickly anger evident on his face. He glared me down 100ft lower.

"Really? Oh, Mason you have such a good way with words. You honestly think I want to discuss you lovely kiss with Ms. Popular down stairs at this moment? I love Teynana with all my heart but she is the last person I want to be talking about right now."  He said heatedly.

"You didn't let me finish Percy." I told him, my patient Percy was gone right now and I needed to act fast. 

"I-" I cut him off.

"I didn't feel anything." I said and looked down. When I kissed Teynana I felt nothing witch pissed me off and I tried to kiss her again thinking that me emotions were numbing my feeling for her. I felt like  nothing when I kissed her. But, when I kissed Percy, I don't know it felt more real. With Teynana I didn't feel like I was kissing anything. With Percy is was much different.

"It felt more in place to kiss you then her, Percy. Let's just say i'm a bit confused right now." I say  and sighed deeply. " I don't want to be confused because  it won't do you any good. You deserve an answer because that's how I felt with Teynana. I needed an answer even if would hurt me. You need an answer and I wanna give it to you now. I just wished long enough to think about it without you knowing." 

Percy said nothing he looked at me wide eyed his eyes clouded.

"I can't deny that I have feeling for you. They just too something to bring them out." I slightly chuckled. " I think this defiantly brought them out."

"Mason." He murmured his eyes softening. I smiled smally and walked to him. Cupping his face, I kissed his lips softly. They were soft and a wave of passion went through me. It was so strong I nearly flew away from him. It was the reassurance I needed. I slowly pulled away and pulled him to me in a tight hug. He gasped and slowly wrapped his skinny arms around me.

He was shorter then me and a bit bony nut he was perfect and I realize it now. I know my answer. I pushed my nose into his his fluffy bed hair and a smile came to my lips and his apple flavored hair.

"My answer is clear to me now, Perce. I do love you and everything about you."

I'd go gay for Percy and Percy only.

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