On The Hunt

Chapter 19

I felt so numb. Everyday o wish someone would call me and tell me that she woke. But know

Every night I have the same dream that she dies and I raise Christian, and he forgets her, then I for get her. Then we all forgets her and I grow up get married and have kids of my own. And to top it off it ends where I die where Teynana looks bat me with betrayal and sadness of me forgetting her so easily.

I have no idea what bit means but it has to mean something. I growled at my self. I was currently in Ms. Averyians class watching and waiting. I sleep through Mr. Johnson's class and my grades were epic fail.

What irritates me the most is that Keenan has.  all  A's. And I'm so stressed. Coach pulled me to the side and asked what's wrong band I told him.

"Coach, Christian is still missing," I said..They all knew that and everyone had told me their sorties and gave gifts, "and on top of that my girlfriend is in a coma. You know how hard it is to focus with all this going on? If you son was missing and your wife was in coma would you be able to focus on coaching us?"

And like that he's been letting me slide. I'd take my time and anger in foot ball and training. Working along side Keenan disgusts me. All the other guys who knows whats going on are disgusted by him too.

It sucks that all of this is happening Teynana has been getting none stop presents. Reporters are starting to hound us when they realize that we are her friends.

I was walking with Mason and Percy to my house when David pulled up.

"Her monitor stopped again."

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My heart rammed into my chest like a angry bull. Mason was crying and Percy was trying to calm him. Sunshine was crying and Johnathan had his head down. Demitrus was calming Angel while holding Sleeping Little Avery while Angel cried. David was pale and teary he had thrown up like 12 times in 4 minutes already.

I stood there and thought of my dreams. Was this the way of god telling me what is going to happen?

Is this his way of telling me I'm going to lose her? It's a pretty sick way of doing so then. Its like god is just laughing at me pathetically saying: 'I'm going to kill your girlfriend like I did in you dreams, thirsty little human boy!'

That's how I felt though. Like in was being to clingy towards her. Like I wanted to much from her and now god wants to take her way because of it.

All I did was try to love her the way I thought love was! Am I wrong? Was I doing the wrong thing? I guess so.

They won't tell us anything. The inhuman thick hospital air choking me. I felt so angry that the doctors seemed not to care. It was pissing me off actually.

We were sitting numbly and sadly thinking were losing her. Finally the doctor walked out with a grace look.

This is it. She's dead. God  actually   took her away.

"She hasn't woken up yet but we managed to get her breathing even. She can't fight much longer though. She'll either die or wake up..o have no clue which one. But we'll just have to wait and see. So we have her in a breathing tube and several other wires I don't care to explain. All you need to know is that without them she'll die for sure. So we'll keep in touch..ERM....I'm so sorry for your almost lost and inconvenience." He said readjusting his glasses.

I was about to say something when David threw up.

"Ugh," he wiped his mouth. He looked sick. His dark hair damp; stuck to his face which was covered in sweat and very pale. His hazel eyes dull and lifeless, " I hate doctors. All of you idiots in huge white coats looking like ghost and what-craps!" He slurred.

He sounded drunk but he was actually sad..I found out that David was on depression pills. He was the kind that had mental issues that when he was sad he has more like a dramatic drunk child like behaviour.

" All you stupid people in this stupid building with your stupid stuff. Yo-you make me   sick.  I can't wait till I do something that'll make all you stupid people just be.....stupid? Anyway! I will have me sister on this earth! You hear me? Because she is my little sister and I love her and we have things we need to discus.

I mean, who is gonna by my Nutella? Who's gonna give advice about girls? Who's gonna be my joy and pride? Who's gonna save me from all the bad people in life? Who's gonna help guide and lead me? Who's gonna be their to tell me they love me every night and sing me to sleep when I can't go to sleep like my mom used to do? Who's gonna rub my back when I'm down? Who's gonna pick me up when I fall? Who's gonna cook and be random with me? Who's gonna be there when my head is down because of my mental illness and tell me everything is gonna be okay? Who's gonna be the aunt of my kids and the sister in law of my wife? Who's   gonna   be   my   little   sister?" He   finished his rant looking at all of us like we were silly.

"Who's gonna pick up all the broken prices and paste them back together?" he asked softly this time his eyes letting out silent stray tears. "I need her. I know she's my little sister but I so badly need her..She can't leave me. She literally all I have left. She has you guys and this little boy were trying to find but since I don't know him and you guys aren't really close to me, who do I have? Nobody. What girl wants a guy with a weird disorder and depression pills? Nobody. What kind of kids want to be friends with a guy who will be old when they go to college and has this weird mental problem where it makes him an asshole? Nobody. So I need her." he said again and walked out.

I need her too. I think we all need her. Before the doctor could say much more we all left. Leaving me to think about my dram and all that's been said.