Raspberry cake「Hanji x reader」✔

16.

||| Y/n L/n |||

tw!angst

After the reunion I had sat with them around a table. We had both decided it was time to rest. The peace was the most comfortable thing that could happen to us. There was silence, but it was okay. This was better than I was able to imagine.

I was looking into their eye,
suddenly came something to my mind. I sat myself up, pushing the chaor behind myself. I went to the counter leaving Hanji behind. I took what I was looking for on there.

"..right I've got something for the others." I smiled.

As I turned back I saw Hanji who was about more and more in front of having a mental breakdown. I ran towards them, I left everything else.

I saw how tears were flowing down their cheeks. They dropped on the table, "Han—Hanji! ..what's wrong?" My voice broke down in pieces. I felt it literally, how it slowly shattered. I was looking at them in shock. They were worrying me. I went towards them standing still. I stood there for the past minutes that moved on from us.

I looked at them, I placed my hand on their shoulder. Laying a smile on my face. "You can tell me everything and you know that for Titans sake– but you don't have to, at least don't pressure yourself with it all alone."

The least thing I did was caring for myself now. I was kneeling down looking them in the eyes. Their eye was filled with sorrow and lost. They had so much pressure on themselve. I stood up and moved my chair right beside them.

I rubbed their back gently as they were sobbing heavy. The expression of pain, was after a while that silence with sobbing was broken. "Moblit.. everyone they died and Erwin.. only Levi and the 104th—" They stopped. A long pause of silence came in the room. I frowned, but tilted my head giving them sympathy.

"..the rest of them- s-suvived." They told me. I held a hand in front of my mouth, my jaw had dropped. I was shocked they had lost more than my immagination thought of.

"I'm C-Commander of a complete branch.. a death commando.. I'm not even sure if- if I fit for this!" I heard how their voice was trembling through all the sentences. They exclaimed. Their voice was full of despair unsureness.

Over the time there had been so much they had to put back and now it all came out. I listened to them and tried comforting them the best way silent. I looked outside, there the window showed me how the night was breaking in.

The darkness with stars shinning on the bright at the same time dark sky. A soft gaze formed on my face. A yawn escaped my mouth, I held my hand in front of my mouth. As I turned around my eses fell on the brunette.

They were looking quiet tired as well, at least to me.

I put a small smile on my face looking at them, "hey.. it's getting late.. why don't you stay for the night here?" I questioned them. They looked at me, a weak smile on their lips.

I hugged them, "we can sleep in the same bed and I'll cuddle and comfort you until you fall asleep. Nothing more and nothing less, okay?"

They nodded trying to look happy. A weak expression of acted happiness on them. They were trying their hardest and I knew that.

"You know me to good my love.. that's really what I need right now a bit cuddling from you and comfort." Hanji whsipered. They set themselve up from the chair. Going over to me, putting a hair streak that had fallen in my face behind my ear.

As we went up into my room the silent was the best thing. Both of us were tired and exhausted we didn't had to communicate. Hanji changed into something I gave them, they had told me back in old days what they were most comfortable with.

We sat on the bed pulling the blanket over out bodies. I smiled at them as I gave them a gesture. They put their arms around me. I felt through warmth I them. My home, a comfortable feeling to say; I was where I always wanted to be.

I leaned my head against their shoulder. "Is that comfortabale with you?" They asked me. I held on their hands as they looked at me. I nodded with a warm smile.

I had quiet doubt it was feeling the same way for them. "Is it for you too? I don't wanna make it uncomfortable for you." They nodded at me. A sleepy expression was on their facial features. Thir breathing was quiet. I heard their heartbeat. I was feeling safe and sound.

A quiet whisper jad escaped their mouth, "it's perfect.." they trailed off.

"And just remember when you have a nightmare—wake me up immadietely no matter how late it is."I heard them scoffing. They ruffled my hair with a smirk that was on their lips. I saw it out of the corner if my eyesight.

And so the rest of the tired feelings I had took over me. My eyelids closed leaving a darkness. That itself was so calming without any stress or anymore pain. Just the silent that I was appreciating.

A small thought went even I my dreams through my head.

Your so important to me, no matter to what time, I'll be there for you and nothing is going to change that ever.