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𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝟖

Chloe's POV:
I'm sitting in my room all packed up. Normally when someone's moving they'd be sad to leave all their childhood memories behind.

But for me, I couldn't be happier. I think a nice big change would be good for me. That way I won't ever have to think of my past trauma unless I'm reminded of it.

I didn't have much to pack except clothes. I only left a few outfits at the house because some of them just reminded me way too much of everything.

Before I left I burned one outfit that I hated the most. The outfit I wore the first time my dad raped me.

I walked over to now burned outfit that's now lying on the floor. I could almost still hear my screaming and crying begging for him to stop.

If you count getting raped, I've already had sex 12 times. But i'm not counting it. The only time I will count it is when I have sex with someone I give consent too, someone I actually love. I'm not planning on having sex for at least five years.

Doing that kinda stuff just reminds me of everything. I'm not ready yet. But I am ready to start letting go.

I snap out of my thoughts and grab my suitcase and start heading out the door. Sensei is already parked outside of the house. I hop into the passenger seat.

"Ready to go kid?"

"More then ready sensei." I reply smiling.
before I know it, I'm in my new room.

It's already a massive upgrade from what I had before. It actually has a bed. And theirs no holes in the walls. Theirs actually a lock on the door so I can have privacy.

I couldn't be more grateful. I was in such a daze I didn't even realize johnny was standing in the doorway smiling at my amazed face.

"So I'm guessing you like your new room huh?"

Instead of replying with words, I run up to him and give him a big hug. I feel like this is all too good to be true. I'm away from my dad. At least for a while. I have amazing friends.

Miguel is now my next door neighbor. I don't have to be scared to come home from school. I can actually look forward to coming home now. I can actually feel that relief everyone else feels when they get home from school.

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Tonight sensei and I are having dinner at Miguel's place. I've met his mom before. She's really sweet. i And they make amazing food too.

"So you just moved in with Johnny today huh?"
carmen said smiling.

"Yes and I couldn't be happier" I said smiling at Johnny.

"Well I'm very happy for you Chloe. And thank you for being such a good friend to Miggy!"

Carmen is such a nice lady. You know if Johnny was my dad and Carmen was my mom, my life would be perfect.

But that'll probably never happen so it's whatever.

Dinner is now over and Miguel and I are in his room playing video games while Johnny and Carmen talk about adult stuff.

"So how's it going with Sam?" I say not looking at him since I'm focusing on the video game.

"Not so good." he said putting his controller down.

I assumed that was my cue to listen and turn off the video game so I that's what I did.

"Oh I'm sorry, do you wanna talk about it?"

"Yeah. I really need someone to talk to about it. I also need some advice. I'm planning on telling the others when we all go to the park together tomorrow. Your going right?"

"Yeah I'm going. so, what happened?"

"I saw sam having dinner at her house with another guy. They were looking at each other as if there was something there if you know what I mean."

I put a comforting hand on his shoulder.
"Maybe it's just her friend. besides, the LaRussos will almost invite anybody over for dinner." I say trying to make him feel better.

"Yeah. Maybe. Should I talk to her about it?"

"You definitely should. But in calm way. Don't act like you don't care, But don't act like your furious. And do it face to face. If you text her about it, she'll think you don't care enough about your relationship because all you think of is to just text her."

"Makes sense." he said nodding.

"And if things don't work out with her, then it'll be fine. Theirs other girls out there and you will meet someone new. And she's your first love. and it's most likely your first love won't be your last."

"Thanks Chloe I have no idea what I would do without you." he said laughing.

He brought me into a hug. He's definitely good at giving hugs but not as good as Eli. Eli's hugs are my favorite.

"Now come on let's with this game." I say enthusiastically and laughing.

"Whatever you say Mrs. Lloyd!" he said laughing back.

I fake laughed with him. I know it might seem a little over dramatic but that last name reminded me too much of my dad. Everything about me reminded me of my dad. My scars, my hair, my body, my clothes, my eyes, my voice, everything.

I decided to not let it bother me and just had fun with miguel for the rest of the time I was there.

Once I got back home with Johnny I knew I needed to talk to him. We both sat on the couch and talked for a bit.

"Hey sensei?" I spoke up.

"Yes clover?" he replied. he came up with that nick name himself. he said i was his "lucky charm" and Chloe and clover sort of go together so he calls me clover now.

"I have to talk to you about something sort of personal."

"What's up?"

"Everything reminds me too much of my dad. it feels like I still can't get away from him. Every time I look in the mirror I can see my scars and it never helps."

"Wanna do something crazy?" he asked.

"Like what?"

"What if I knew a way to cover up some of the scars?"

"And what's that?"

"Follow me."

Before I know it, we're a tattoo place. I decided to get two of them. One to cover up the scar on my neck, and one to cover up some of the scars on my left wrist.

On my neck i got a black flame since it's badass, and I've been told when i'm passionate I have a fire in my eyes.

On my wrist I got a four leave clover since that was the nickname Johnny gave me. It was like I had my own dad that gave me sweet nicknames since my real dad mostly called me a prick, a slut, or a piece of shit.

"So what do you think?" I said showing Johnny my tattoos.

"Badass" he said with a smile.