Breathe

~thirteen~

disclaimer- talks of problems with drugs and alcohol please read at your own risk

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Anna left and I cleaned up our mess of empty cups and bowls. I figured my mom would be home soon she was having a hard day so I decided to make dinner for us. I didn't know how to cook much but I could probably manage some pasta and garlic bread. I played some music and grabbed the stuff to start we didn't have much in the house. We have to go shopping soon making a mental reminder to tell mom. I boiled some water and put the garlic and cheese on the bread while I waited. I put the pasta in the water and set the table a few minutes later I basically had everything ready. I left the stuff on the stove so it wouldn't get cold waiting for mom. I grabbed the book I was reading before Anna came over and head out to my spot on the balcony watching the sunset for the third time this week. The week was surprisingly going faster than I thought.

      The sun had eventually set and I got cold outside so I took a hot shower and braided my wet hair to make it curly tomorrow. I did my treatments quickly keeping my promise to Luke.  I grabbed the fuzzy blanket and plopped on the couch putting on The Office. I drifted off to sleep quickly with the distant sounds of the theme song.

     It was about 2 am when I heard the door opening scaring the living crap out of me. My mom walked in with clothes she wasn't wearing before. She had her hair curled, bright lipstick, eyeshadow with a tight dress. She walked into the room stumbling on her tall heels.

" mom?" I questioned getting off the couch. She turned to me smelling of alcohol and drugs. My heart broke as I came to realize what was going on. I couldn't look at her in the eyes she had problems with addiction when I was younger she lost custody of me for a little over a year while she was in rehab. I was too young to remember most of it but I was so proud of her for overcoming it she has had a hard life and I finally thought it was better.

" How could you?" I said quietly tears streaming down my face she just looked at me

" It was just one night Maya relax" she countered at me throwing off her shoes and heading to her bedroom. I had to talk to her when she was better talking now would only cause problems. The tears didn't stop tho and I eventually cried myself to sleep.

I woke up later in the day since I was up late. I sighed not feeling like facing the day knowing that I would have to talk to my mom about last night. I layed in bed for a few minutes before finding the motivation to start the day. I threw on some leggings and a hoodie keeping it simple then put on some fuzzy socks. It was quite cold in the apartment. I walked out into the kitchen my mom not insight. I poured some cereal into my bowl and put in some milk. My mom walked slowly into the kitchen. We exhanged eye contact without saying anything.

" Morning," I said

" morning," she said back

" do you remember what happened last night?"

" yes, I am sorry Maya i've just been so stressed with work and i don't know... it was just one night I promise it won't happen again." Part of me knew she was probably lying that I shouldn't trust her but she was my mom and I wanted to believe her so I did. We hugged and made up for fighting last night.

" why don't we do something fun today?" she asked and I nodded wanting to get out of the house for a while.

" there's this great restaurant down he street we can go for dinner I want you to meet a friend." she stated bring her breakfast upstairs to get ready. I panicked what if this was the friend that was on the phone? was this her boyfriend? was it the people who gave her stuff last night? Maybe dinner wasn't such a great idea now. I finished my breakfast took my pills and did my treatment.

I walked back into my room turned on some music before taking a nice hot shower. Hot showers are honestly the best. After my shower I did some skin care and blow dried my hair.

(insert sponge bob voice) several hours later

We had to leave for dinner in a hour so I put on a cute outfit of some jean shorts, a cute top and a big cardigan. I looked pretty good considering I usually only wear hoodies and leggings.
" Maya are you ready?" my mom called from her bedroom
" yeah coming!" I yelled back grabbing my bag that had some chapstick, my phone, and my inhaler. I walked out into the hallway to see mom wearing really tall heals, and another tight dress. This was not some ordinary friend. It had to be that guy why would she dress like that just for dinner?

" you look nice mom"
" thank you dear you as well!" she replied
we headed out the door and into the car we drove for about 5 minutes until she pulled into a large shopping area with a bunch of stores, 2 bars and a small restaurant. I walked out of the car heading for the door to the restaurant figuring that was were we were going.
" Maya it's this way!" mom said walking in the opposite direction to the bar. I sighed I though she wasn't going to do this anymore. I walked fast towards her because she kept walking without me. We steeped through the door when my mom went up to her friend.
" Oh My God..."

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