A random book

23. KMS

All of these memories break me.
You left me with nothing,
The time that you barely gave me.
Now I'm just floating.

My body's floating
Into bloody water.
What would they say if
they saw me sinking down under?

I'm hurt,
I'm scarred.
They say that they're here,
but they aren't.

"Slut",
"Whore".
"Calm down, it's not like
he was yours before".
"Don't steal my boyfriend
or you'll be buried in the floor."
That's what I look like to you?

Betrayed my trust.
I gave it everything I got.
You knew you fucked me up.
But that wasn't enough.

Had to go into my soul,
just to take it.
I raised a heart by myself
and you took it and raped it.

Don't know why I
bothered to have friends,
My parents told me,
"schools all about education,
Those friends you made–
your time is being wasted."
Of course, I didn't listen.

I tried to fit in,
and I couldn't take it.
Every embarrassment and every shame.
They took advantage of me
and they changed the whole story.

You cheated and lied,
the rumours you spread were ageless.
I was naked.
Skin was exposed.
And my soul was there for the taking.

What the hell was I supposed to do?
when you were pawing at me and
nobody cared enough when they heard my screams?

I played it off cool.
Didn't know it would happen.
I ran from you.
But of course,
you thought I was asking for it.

Every friend knew I existed,
but yet they still insisted
that I wasn't good enough to fit In.
And I believed it.

V, I thank you for everything
you've done to help keep me alive.
You walked with me and
stuck until you made sure I could survive.

But I didn't. I'm dead.
To everyone who could care less.
I'm the new "Hannah Baker"
but I'm not in a tub yet.

K, you helped me relieve
everything that I was feeling.
We drove & we talked.
A memory to never be forgotten.
I'm glad that we could be friends.

I'm hurting again, but that's okay.
Maybe all the trauma I could fit into 13 tapes.
For everyone who hurt me.
You're all the reasons that I'm learning,
I'm edging closer to death.

Don't care.
It's too late to care.
It's too late to apologize,
I gave you all the signs,
now I'm done talking.

"Some of you care, but none of you cared enough."