A random book

2. The Things She Would Whelve.

Warning: there is at least one word of profanity in here. :)

"Hey there",
They glance at her waiting for an answer, a "hey" back.
While she just stares back.
She's wearing all black; black hoodie, black slacks. Puts the makeup on to make sure they don't see on her face how much she struggles,
she's a disgrace.
Doesn't even give them the time of day, or the sunlight of dawn.
She's so alone, so she cries and she cuts and covers it up, but the scars only give her bad memories, hey, maybe thats what she wants.
She doesn't care, they don't scare,
the memories caught up to her and they hurt her. She says,
"People are the reason I'm so depressed, the reason I'm stressed,
why did I let all these people in?"
She thinks that's just another way to get hurt from them.
She thought she chased her monsters away, she thought she could forget them, throw it all away.
But then they come back again, saying, "look where I've been," dangling her memories in front of her face.
"I found something else to torture you with". With a deadly smile on their face. Now she has friends,
not good for her, but good for them. Not good for her 'cause now she'd have to lose 'em. They became the new monsters unknown, they'll be the ones ringing your phone asking for weaknesses; as they beg and plead to finally spill something that's wrong with me.
They'll be the ones reigning your throne. She doesn't want to let them go, cause she hates being alone.
Yeah mate, she hates being alone, but to push them away is the best thing to stay safe. That way the monsters don't capture her, they've done it a million times and she screams for them to 'go away' but they don't care, they decide to stay. The phone rings,
She thinks,'Why won't you leave me alone?'
"Hey did you safely get home?"
'No, fuck, of course I don't have a home.' Is what her mind says, and the words she said ever so cheerfully are, "Yes, i did!" and the conversations go on again, something to keep her busy from her family and her demons.
Family's suffering because of me based on gods punishment to yours truly,
you're lucky it ain't thee. She's sick but she says, "I have to protect my family"
but no, she's too weak, she can't be strong, because she can't be, at all, never ... free.