A random book

21. Listen Before I Go

Pain and misery,
That's all she feels.
When she's alone,
She can never heal.

It only gets worse,
The wall starts to build up again.
The trust goes away.
The blade against the skin.

She doesn't want to cry,
She doesn't want to eat.
She conceals the pain,
Because she can't afford to bleed.

She was doing so well,
Until the nightmares came back.
Til everything she saw colorful,
Went completely black.

In defensive mode, 24/7.
It never stops.
Her mother says
"Don't you trust me?"
Her heart drops.

Completely silent,
as she walks away.
She knows her mother's heart,
Begins to break.

It's okay for you,
not to trust your daughter.
But it's not okay for your daughter,
To not trust you?

It's been awhile,
forever it seems.
He is the only person she trusts.
But that starts to fade,
with every mistake he makes.

He reminds her of the past,
The only one she tries to forget.
He gets mad,
starts blowing off his head.

He can't lose her,
But she's already lost.
Her mind begins to run,
Threatening with every thought.

She flinches at the raise of a hand,
She can't figure out why.
But every time she's reminded,
She wilts away and dies.

Her fathers comfort,
is what she wants.
He shakes her off,
Like she's just dust.

She knows she's losing all his love.
But she still grabs on,
and tugs and tugs.
She doesn't deserve the love.

She knows that and slits,
deeper with every cut.
To take control of something,
To feel it again, like a drug.
Her Percocet.

Knowing that everything she does,
just struggling for love.
Is every night that she must pay.
The purpose of her skin,
is to just punish and punish.

No one will see it,
The pain she is in.
No one will see it,
The scars on her skin.

No one will see it,
Distance from loved ones.
She will ruin all she has,
Just for their happiness.

Because she knows,
She doesn't make them happy.
She knows,
that she doesn't belong here.

So let her die,
let her drown in fear.
She's gasping for air,
but just leave her there.

(Sorry this one is really bad)