You are beautiful to me (Gerard Way x Reader)

13) After The Party

...I had given up.

Suddenly I heard the door open and someone entered.
"Fuck off. We are just in the middle of something." Brandon said without turning around to the person.
"Okay, chill out. I was just looking for someone and- wait...y/n is that you?!"
he said in shock. He probably couldn't see me before because Brandon was leaning over me. I didn't answer because I still couldn't move or speak.
"I said fuck off." Brandon said annoyed, still not averting his gaze from me.
"And I asked if that is y/n." Gerard said in a demanding tone.

I tried to turn my head to the side so I could see Gerard. When Gerard saw it was me, his eyes widened and he ran over to me. Before he could bend down to me, Brandon turned and punched him in his face.

"Leave her the fuck alone!" Gerard said in a loud and angry voice. Brandon stood across from him and grinned.
"Why? We're just having some fun." he said in an innocent voice.
"Oh really?" Gerard said sarcasticly and still angry.
"It clearly looks like y/n isn't having so much fun." he continued and wanted to walk over to me again, but Brandon pushed him away.
"GO OUT OF THE WAY!" Gerard now screamed.
"Ooh are you sad that you are not the first one who kissed her?" Brandon said to provocate him.

Gerard just stared at Brandon in full anger for a few seconds. If looks could kill, Brandon would have just died 1000 deaths. Then Gerard hit Brandon with full force in the face and afterwards kicked him in the stomach. You could see that Brandon was really in pain but he covered it up and just said
"She was too prudish and boring anyway, you're welcome to have her."
and went out of the room.

Gerard hurried over to me and sat down on the bed.
"Y/n, I'm so sorry. Are you all right?" he said in an excited and worried voice. Why is he sorry? He didn't do something wrong. I somehow managed to get up so that I was sitting next to him on the bed now. I couldn't answer, however. Instead, I just stared at the floor.

We sat in silence for a few minutes.  Gerard probably didn't know how to act right and didn't want to touch me either because he didn't know how I would react on it because after what had just happened.

All of a sudden I wrapped my arms around him and hugged him very tightly. I didn't know why I did it. It seemed like my body made the decision to hug him without asking my brain first. But it felt right. I felt safe. He hesitated a moment but then put his arms around me too. He put one of his hands on the back of my head and caressed it gently.
"Everything will be fine. I'm here for you now." he wisphered into my ear.
I buried my head in his chest and he hugged me a little firmer.

I never wanted to let go again. He felt so warm and the way he hugged me gave me a feeling of safety. At some point I decided to end the hug. Reality hit me immediately, so I felt awful again.

I suddenly remembered that I was just sitting there in a bra, so I quickly reached my top and pulled it over.
I crossed my arms like you do when you're cold. But I wasn't cold, I felt kinda...naked. Gerard noticed this and put the leather jacket he was wearing around my shoulders. A few more minutes of silence passed. I hadn't looked Gerard in the eyes since Brandon left. I just stared at the floor.

"Do you want me to drive you home?"  he asked in a soft voice. I just nodded and we left the room. To get out of the house, you had to pass the loud crowd in the living room.

"Y/n there you are!" I heard Amalia shouting and walking in our direction. She was obviously drunk.
"Uhhh you were with Gerard? Where have you been all this time? Were you two having fun? Oohh you wearing his jacket? Sexy!" she said with a giggle and winked at us. I really wasn't in the mood for that and felt even more uncomfortable now.
"We go home." Gerard said, ignoring Amalia's comments.
"It's a shame it's still so early. But I don't wanna stop you two lovebirds from having fun" she said.
"But use protection." she whispered to us and then went back to the dance floor.

We walked to Gerard's car and he asked me if I was okay, once again. I nodded, although that wasn't true.
The car ride was quiet. I didn't mind because I was extremely exhausted and still in a kind of trance since what happened with Brandon.

The car stopped.
"So here we are....I hope you get along. If there is anything you can call me anytime." Gerard said and sounded extremly worried somehow. I didn't get out, just stayed in the car. I cannot go in my house, to my mom, pretending just like nothing happened and everthing is fine. I don't have the strength to do that right now.
"Of course y-you can also...come to my place if you prefer. It's no problem. I just didn't know if it might looked strange when I asked that after you-" he cut the sentence off because he knew that I was uncomfortable with that subject. He saw that I nodded and said
"Okay. Don't worry, you'll be able to recover soon." he said and started the car.

When we got home to him, Gerard explained to me that his parents would not be at home for a few days, which relieved me.

"Here, you can wear this." he said and handed me a hoodie and sweatpants from him. He left the room so that I could change. The clothes were way too big for me, but they were cozy and smelled good. I felt comfortable in it.

"Suits you" Gerard said with a slight grin when he came back in.
"Whatever," he said as he recognized that I didn't know how to react.
"you can sleep in my bed. I'm gonna sleep on the couch."

I looked him in the eyes for the first time since the party,
"I'm sorry." I said. He looked at me confused and worried.
"But what are you sorry for? You didn't do anything wrong."
"I-I'm such a burden to y-you." I mumbled and averted my gaze, tears was forming in my eyes.

"What are you talking about? That's absolutly not true y/n." he sat down on the bed and pointed to the seat next to him. I took the seat.
"Since we've known each other, I hadn't give you a-anything but problems." I said, trying not to cry.
"Y/n, please don't say that. That's not true. You give me so much. I can’t put it into words. The night at the lake with you was the most beautiful experience I've had in years. You can't imagine how grateful I am to have you in my life, even though we haven't even known each other for long." he said and looked at me with his gentle hazel eyes.
"R-really?"
"Yes, I meant every word. And I want you to never doubt that."
"G-Gerard"
"Yeah?"
"Thank you." I said shyly. He smiled at me with bright eyes.

"Now get some sleep. The day was very exhausting for you." he said and wanted to leave the room, but stopped in the door frame.
"It's okay if you don't wanna talk about the thing that happend at the party, but I just want you to know that when you decide that you want to talk to someone about it at some point, that I'm always there for you and listen to you."
I nodded and smiled slightly. He returned the smile and left the room with a 'good night y/n'.