You are beautiful to me (Gerard Way x Reader)

14) I Have To Go

I checked the time. 2.37am. Even though I was extremely tired, I couldn't sleep. I realized that my mouth was pretty dry because I hadn't drunk anything in a longer time now. Why now? I don't wanna wake somebody up accidently and besides, it might be impolite to just get something from the kitchen without asking...
I stared at the ceiling for a while until I decided to finally get something to drink.

I walked down the hall and into the living room, where I saw Gerard. I expected him to sleep, but he was watching a movie. For some reason I just stood there looking like an idiot.

Gerard noticed my presence.
"Oh hey y/n, is everything okay?"
"Uh yeah everything's fine. I'm just a little thirsty and wanted to get myself something to drink, if it is okay?"
"Oh sure, you don't have to ask. Wait, I'll get you a glass of water." he said smiling gently and then he got up and went to the kitchen. The rooms were open, so I could look into the kitchen from the living room.

"Here."
"Thanks" I was still standing in the same place as a few minutes ago.
"Ehm, why don't you sleep?"
"Oh, I just couldn't fall asleep, as always. That's all." he said casually.
"As always?"
"Oh uhm yeah, but it's not that bad. I've got used to it." he said and laughed awkwardly.

I didn't say anything but raised a brow.
"Anyway" he waved his hand "I don't wanna keep you from sleeping."
"Oh, you don't. I can't sleep either." now I was the one laughing in an awkward way.
"Do you may wanna stay with me? We could watch a movie or just talk if you want."
"Y-yeah sure."

I sat down next to him on the couch.
"Whatcha watching?" I pointed to the TV.
"I don't even know, just a strange movie about humans eating each other or something like that."
"Sounds like the perfect movie." I said and he laughed.

The movie was terrible. But we had a lot to laugh because it was so bad.
After the movie I just stared at the ceiling.

"Whatcha thinkin' about?" Gerard asked me.
"Oh uhm n-nothing."
"You can tell me" he smirked and nudged me on my side.
"Are you afraid that I will eat you?  Just like that dude in the movie had eaten his girlfriend?" He laughed.
"What makes you so sure that I won't eat you?" I said, puting my finger on his chest when I said 'you'. I quickly put my finger back down and Gerard gave me a smirk.
"We can also just eat Mikey up together. So no one of us have to die." He said and we both laughed again.

We joked around for a while until I was too tired to talk. Gerard put his arm around me and gave me a gentle smile, his soft hazel eyes looking down at me. Normally I would have gotten extremely nervous at that moment, but I was just too tired to have stressful thoughts right now. So I snuggled up in his chest and quickly fell asleep.

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"HA, I KNEW IT!" I heard Frank shouting.
"Shut up, Frank. She's sleeping." Gerard said annoyed.
"Sleeping with you" Frank corrected Gerard's sentence with a proud voice.
"What the fuck is wrong with you Frank?" I mumbled still cuddled in Gerard's chest.
"Great job Frank, now you've woken her." Gerard said, still annoyed.

I sat up and saw Mikey and Ray next to Frank in the doorway.
"What are you doing here anyway?" Gerard asked.
"I live here." Mikey said and went to his room.
"We all stayed at Frank's yesterday and now we wanted to hang out." Ray explained.
"Speaking of yesterday, the party was rad!" Frank said enthusiastically.

I got flashbacks from the party and immediately felt sick.
"I have to go" I said, trying to sound normal.
"Why so suddenly?" Ray asked confused. Gerard tried to calm me down by holding my hand. But I just got up and left the house, without saying a word. I was in a trance again. Just like yesterday.

I came home and my mom greeted me. 
"Hey, how was your sleepover with Amalia?"
I just answered a short 'good' and walked straight to my room without even looking at my mom.

"Wait a minute, young lady!" my mom called after me. Young lady: if she calls me that, it can't mean anything good.
"Who does this clothing belong to, if I may ask?" she said with a raised voice. Oh shit, I completely  forgot about that.
"Doesn't matter." I said and continued walking.
"No, no, no. It does matter! So answer my question. And please don't tell me they are from this...Gerard." he said, his name with a disgusted voice.

"What if it were so?" I said with annoyed voice.
"So they are his. I told you to stay away from this boy!"
"And I told you that you don't even know this boy. So you shouldn't judge him!" I said now in a louder tone.
"You are too young and don't know anything about love!"
"What the fuck mom?! I didn't even talk about love. We. Are. Just. Friends. That's it! Gosh, why is this so hard to understand for anyone?" I rolled my eyes.
"Go to your room now! And you won't meet anyone on the weekend."
I was about to go to my room anyway so this isn't even punishment for me.

I said nothing and went into my room. I laid down on bed and put on my headphones.

I'm sorry that this chapter was kinda boring. I hope you found it okay anyway.
I also wanted to say thank you for 700 reads! I didn't expect anyone to read my story at all and actually only started it for myself. The more I am happy about every single one who enjoys it. :)
I hope you’re doing alright. You are important and absolutly worth it. And even if it doesn't feel like it, someone out there loves you. I love you. Please never forget that! Stay strong <3