Falling in Love With my Best Friend

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Addi's pov:⚠️Self harm and suicidal thoughts please skip if easily triggered until you see these emojis again⚠️
I might be overreacting about not getting a kiss but its been hours since I last saw Dixie and now I'm sitting on the window seat in her hoodie because it kinda calms me down as I have been crying. Its my fault she left again I'm such a bad girlfriend well not yet but I hope that she'll ask me to be her's soon. I heard my bedroom door open to reveal a concern Charli but I just shook my head so she left closing the door. I felt so alone so worthless which brought me back to my highschool years when I used to cut myself and man I miss it. I felt pain somewhere else than my hurting and broken heart the pain was unbearable but I loved the feeling of the blade against my skin. I thought about how everyone would be happier if I was dead so I got up and went to the bathroom. I hit up my friend who used to give me blades and asked him to get me a few and just drop it off at the house. So 15 minutes later I got 10 new blades and ran up to the room locking the door. I unwrapped I and started cutting my arms and man I missed this so much I didn't notice how much cutting I did until I felt light headed. I just sat on the bathroom floor letting the blood trickle down to the floor and that's the last thing I can remember before I passed out from losing too much blood.

Dixie's pov:
I was back at the house and everyone was hanging out in the living room but Addi which is odd so I went to change first. I got to our room and the door was locked which is even weirder since she is never like this so I unlocked the door to see the bathroom light on but it was dead silence. I ran to the bathroom and it was locked so I started knocking on the door and screaming which made everyone come running into the room as I tried knocking down the door but once I opened it my heart broke. I dropped down and held her crying my eyes out and so was everyone else but I tried shaking her but she woke up but couldn't keep her eyes open.
D: CALL 911 CALL 911!!
T: Don't worry Dix they are on there way!
A: I just need everything to stop.
D: You're gonna be fine!
M: You're gonna be okay!
C: You're gonna be okay.
She passed out again and I cried even harder holding her close as I rocked her.
D: Not my baby not my baby!
Soon paramedics came into the room taking her away but I couldn't move so Mia and Thomas went with her in the ambulance as Kouvr held me. I was covered in her blood as Alex carried me onto my bed as Charli got me a fresh pair of clothes to change as everyone else left but her and Avani. Avani was cleaning up the blood so I changed into her hoodie but Charli didn't know and once Avani was done we all headed to the hospital. I was numb my face was unreadable and I barely even moved since I found her but right now I'm sitting in the waiting room with everyone as Sheri held me because I haven't stoped crying.
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Sheri/Sh: Shhh she is gonna be okay sweetheart she's a fighter.
D: I should have came home earlier to stop her.
Sh: Don't blame yourself you didn't know.
D: I wish I knew.
Sh: Its gonna be okay.
Her doctor walked out and all I heard was that she was in a coma and after that I stopped listening because I had a break down and a panic attack. Kouvr and Mia noticed and tried to help me calm down but I couldn't anymore what if she dies I'm gonna lose the love of my life and soon I passed out.

Charli's pov:
Everything happened so fast I heard Dixie screaming for Addi to open the door and once she got through Addi was covered in her own blood barely awake. I heard seirens come closer and closer till 2 paramedics came and took her away to the hospital. Now I'm sitting between Addi and Dixie because Dixie passed out due to the stress she had endured in the last few hours so she is resting but Addi is in a coma and they don't know if she'll wake up. (Play song right now) I remembered a somg Dixie used to sing to me everytime I had a bad day or after I would get surgery so I started singing it.
You've been on this road too long
Hearing music but it's not your song
Wanna scream but your voice is gone
Days trapped inside your head
Can't look up 'cause your world is down
Walking miles, staring at the ground
All alone inside the crowd
Letting pockets hold your hand
But the sun is always there to shine
The clouds block out the sky
Oh, hold on
Just one more day
Hold on
You know you'll find a way
Hold on
You've got stars in your eyes
So let's paint the sky
Oh, hold on
Just one more time
Hold on
I'll be your reason why
Hold on
You've got stars in your eyes
Let's paint the sky
So let's paint the sky
It's time to start remembering dreams
Lift your eyes, see the things unseen
Remember who you wanna be
Let the light hit your eyes
Let out the beauty that's been trapped inside
Let them know that you're not gonna hide
Hey up there your arms open wide, spread your wings and fly
But the sun is always there to shine
The clouds don't own the sky
Oh, hold on
Just one more day
Hold on
You know you'll find a way
Hold on
You've got stars in your eyes
So let's paint the sky
Oh, hold on
Just one more time
Hold on
I'll be your reason why
Hold on
You've got stars in your eyes
Let's paint the sky

Once I finished singing it I was in tears because I was scared I'd lose 2 very important people in my life my big sister and my best friend but soon everyone was in the room and thank god we have a big room to fit everyone. Everyone's eye were red and swollen from crying so much but soon visiting hours were over so everyone left but Avani and I because we volunteered to watch them tonight. We cuddled on the couch as we watched a movie on my phone but an hour later Dixie woke up but she just stared at me before looking up at the ceiling and start crying so I got up to hold her.
D: Char what if she doesn't make it?
Av: She'll make it Dixie don't worry even if it takes years she'll wake up.
D: I hope.
I just sat there comforting Dixie until she fell asleep but I knew tonight was gonna be a very long night because she woke up screaming several times. Avani and I took turns comforting her throughout the night and now its 10:30 meaning visiting hours so Thomas texted me the gang is headed to the hospital with dunkin. Also he told me Mia and Kouvr packed clothes for Avani, Dixie, and I because they knew that Dixie wouldn't leave so Avani and I had to stay with her.

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