Gone Girl

Chapter 47

Nicole hesitates to speak so I stare at her until she does. Her hair is much longer now and it looks like she re-did her highlights.

She seems tired and her skin isn't as flawless as it used to be.

"Derek told me everything-"

I cut her off confused.

"Everything?"

"Our first party, last July- He said you defended me and James threatened you."

I look at her confused, it's been so long since that night and I frankly don't care much about it—I hate James—but that wasn't the only thing that made me hate him, nor the last time he threatened me.

She pulls me into a hug and I let her do so, for a few seconds until I pull away.

"I'm so sorry, now I know why you ignored us for months. It's my fault," she speaks so fast that I can't even stop her.

"We can go back to how everything was, I'm not seeing J- James anymore." Nicole struggles to even say his name and I know how much she still loves him. I'm happy she gave up on him.

She again tries to wrap her arms around me and I finally speak up.

"Nicolle, stop, it wasn't because of him," I mutter and she pulls away, confused.

"Then... w- what was it about?" she asks with a slight hint of annoyance in her voice.

"I don't understand, I'm tired. It's been almost a year and you can't f- fucking explain," she yells and I almost take a speak backward shocked by her cursing.

I have never heard her curse before.

I pull myself together and her reaction enrages me, she has no right to know why or get mad at me.

I don't care that she was my best friend, it's not her business and it was never about her. I don't owe anyone an explanation.

"You have been nothing but a terrible friend to us- to me," she continues and my hands start shaking.

"What? Are you fucking with me?! I did everything I could for you, I was always there when your stupid ass couldn't get over James, he never gave a shit about you, and yet-"

She cuts me off by shoving me.

"I got harassed by James, again, and again just for you," I spit, I am losing control and she doesn't give a shit.

"Oh, please, it was because you were an insecure bitch who kept going back to my ex-boyfriend," she hisses at me and I push her back, she almost loses her balance.

"Ex-boyfriend? Do you hear yourself? Do you realize how fucking pathetic you sound? He used you. He fucked you and left," I say through gritted teeth and tears form around her eyes but I couldn't care less right now.

"You know he forced himself on me? Do you know that? Just because I defended you. Can't believe I cared about someone like you," I yell without even caring that someone could hear me.

She is silent and her eyes are glossy but I won't let that get to me, she started this and I hate her.

"You are nothing but a judgmental bitch. You always have been," I mutter and she wipes away her tears.