Gone Girl

Chapter 64

June

"I just realized we never had a first date," Derek whispers as he pulls me towards him, with my back pressed against his chest.

We embrace each other in silence for a few minutes and I feel grateful for every moment we are together.

"What do you have in mind?" I ask as I turn to face him and he tugs a strand of my hair behind my ear.

My muscles tense up as I remember what Olivia told me. I barely saw her the past month but I know she is keeping an eye on me and she keeps hitting on Derek.

I told him to keep it a secret for now but I know he isn't happy about it.

"Maybe a nice restaurant-"

"Out of this town." I cut him off and he frowns.

"You are so mysterious, Veronica Reeves,"  whispers close to my ear and I gently pull the corner of his shirt.

"You kept me a secret for two months." He pouts.

"Because I don't want to lose you," I admit as I am one inch away from his face.

I didn't tell him the truth because he would murder James and they will tell the police everything about him. I just feel like it's going to make it worse. Everything has been calm lately.

What I find weird is that James stopped bothering me about Nicole and I noticed she talked to him a few times, despite Louis not liking that.

I have a bad feeling about them.

"Why do you think you will lose me?" he asks while his thumb caresses my cheek.

Derek is breathtaking.

"I- I don't know. But let's keep it like this, please," I finally talk and he sighs, disappointed.

I wrap my arms around him and I brush my lips against his, savoring every moment. His cozy touch gets more addicting each time and I didn't think it could be possible, but it is.

I know I feel very strong emotions for him but I can't quite pinpoint what is it. It's all so unknown to me.

Louis was the first guy I liked...

But it was nothing like this with Louis, he made me nervous but with Derek, I feel a variety of emotions... every day is like I'm meeting him for the first time. Every touch is a new experience and I never felt safer in my entire life. I still get nightmares but he doesn't ask me what's wrong anymore, he just understands and holds me until I fall asleep.

I know how much he wants me to open up to him, but he lets it slide.

Sometimes when he touches me by surprise, I flinch. He sees it and he doesn't say anything about it but I can tell he is upset.

We break the kiss and I just can't get enough, I want more of him.

"I need to ask you something," I mutter as I take a deep breath in and he lifts my chin with his thumb.

"Go ahead."

"Are we- like- together together?" I ask with uncertainty because we didn't clarify this as we kept our... thing secret. But we both know it's exclusive, I'm his and he is mine.

"I will answer this question tonight." He winks and I smile.

"We will go to a restaurant out of town," he explains and I smile despite feeling a bit guilty. I'm not lying to him, right? I'm just omitting the truth for our good.

I know he stopped helping Felix but I still feel weird, like someone is always following us.

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