If They Only Knew...

Chapter 15- Valeria

I was still unsure about what I should do about the whole Raven situation, but my family helped greatly with that.

"What if... What if nobody likes me when they find out I'm trans... What if... I get bullied?" I wring my hands nervously & Celestina takes them gently.

She sighs. "I already told you- my friends won't make fun of you. They'll support you... & if anyone else messes with you... You've got us." She gestured to the rest of my family & I smiled as they sat up, arms crossed, trying to look intimidating. "Plus, the admin at our college are very against bullying, so I'm sure if there was an issue, we could take it up with them, & they could handle it."

"Ok..." I looked away, then back up again. "But... What if Raven herself doesn't accept me?"

My sister laughed. "Well, then, she's an idiot. You're amazing. & I know... It'll hurt if she doesn't but... You really shouldn't be with someone if they don't accept you for who you are... & relationships are based on honesty & trust so... You'll have to tell her eventually... Not that you have to today... You can take your time... Hell, you can wait to even talk to her... You don't have to talk to her today at the bonfire... Though I'd encourage it... You can move at your own speed... But just remember..." She took my chin gently in her hand. "If she doesn't accept you for you, she isn't worth your time."

I sighed. "I know... It'll still be hard though..."

My family nodded, hugging me slowly. "But we'll be here for you."

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I ended up deciding to go to the bonfire tonight. All this week, our college would have icebreakers & things so freshmen could get familiar with the campus, the college experience, & have the chance to make friends. The rest of the events would be more casual than the dance though.

I decided that I wouldn't talk to Raven today, I wasn't ready for that yet. I would just try to enjoy the night with Celestina & her friends... Who I was hoping would take me in as 1 of their own... I knew I would eventually have to talk to Raven about everything if I wanted to be with her... But not tonight.

Look at that emotional growth :3 <3. She's doin' it, despite her anxieties, which I know (1st hand) can be tough. I've never come out, but I feel like if I were in her shoes, I'd feel the same. Nervous, worried, unsure, wanting to take the leap, but not sure how...

Well, that's my abridged thought on things. Catch you guys later. Byeeeee B)