Hidden Desire

Beginning

As his long, delicate fingers trace my thigh I feel his heart pound faster. His hot breath tickles my neck, his hands travelling down the crevasses of my skin. He climbs ontop of me, staring at me with glistening, admiring eyes. I watch as he examines me like an animal in a zoo, licking his lips as if I'm his desired prey. "You're all mine." he groans as he pushes his hand down my lace panties. I try to sound pleased, moaning to make it seem believable. He teases me with his fingers, sliding them up and down, over and over again, he wants me to beg for his touch. I'm repulsed but I do as I have been taught. "Please!" I scream to him, sounding innocent and submissive just as he wants. "Say my name and I will please you." I roll my eyes in disgust and grab his Lucious brown hair. "Silus, please take me!" 

He smirks happily as he pushes his fingers deep inside, slipping my panties off with his teeth and placing them into his back pocket. He strokes my insides, he thinks he's pleased me like no other man, he thinks I'm amazed by his skills. I realise I have been to quiet and moan loudly, arching my back in a pleasurable way. He scoffs, pleased that I am enjoying myself. I want this to be over so I grab the head board and moan uncontrollably, hoping he thinks I climaxed. He smiles proudly and licks his fingers, planting kisses along my thigh and my breasts. I pull his head up inches away from mine and kiss him passionately, our tongues entangling in each others heat. He pushes my legs open, making me an entrance for his own pleasure.

"I want all of you Adira. I want to be inside you." He whispers those revolting words in my ear and I giggle to hide my nausea. I stare at him and use my right hand to undo his pants and reaching into his underwear. As I stroke it he groans with pleasure, his hand pushing against the timber headboard. He looks down at me and lifts me so I sit on his lap. He scans my body, enticed by my breasts as they perk upwards because of my position. "I want you to try to do it yourself." He says as if I have never had sex before, well that is what I told him. I have to keep pushing the innocence act down his throat for my plan to work. "I'll try but I don't know if I'll be any good Silus."

He smiles approvingly and kisses me.I push his inside of me, letting my hips push back and forth, him releasing pleasurable moans as I continue. I place my hands on his chest as I quicken the pace, wanting to get it over with. He starts to breathe even faster, his groans becoming greater and ending with a pleased climax. He placed his hands on my waist, his expression is a mixture of shock and confusion. "Did it hurt?" he asks innocently as if he cared. I shake my head as I lay next to him in the white, silk sheets. "It hurt a little bit. Did I do okay?" I ask innocently, maintaining my doe eyed looks and childlike smile. 

"Good? It was amazing, the best sex I've ever had!" I smile and kiss him excitedly. "Really?" He nods, slightly shocked but pleased. "You didn't seem to finish though." I realise that I didn't put on a big show, he must have been watching to see my reaction. I panic, trying to figure out an excuse or reason. "I finished before though, when you were doing the thing." I try sounding innocent and oblivious. He laughs and I let out a relieved sigh. He lays on his side facing me, pushing the brown strands of hair behind my right ear. He cups my cheek with the same hand and caresses my face.

"I am utterly in love with you Adira. Everything about you, your smile, your body, your laugh, everything." I feel repelled by his touch but I just laugh and pull away from his touch as subtly I can. "I love you more than anything my king...." I'm interrupted. "I told you to call me Silus." I continue talking. "I love you Silus but you know my status. I don't want to be seen as one of your whores that you buy things for." I drift around the room, letting him admire my naked body. I intentionally pose in a way he can see my figure and my revealing curves. 

I see him in the reflection of the mirror, gawking at my known beauty. It was the only thing other than skilled lying I had. I stare at my body, tracing my fingers around my hips and waist, he seemed enchanted by my movements. "You are not a whore my love, far from it." I scoff and start to grab my clothes. "I am just a mere servant who has the attention of the beloved king." He seems angered by what I said but I am unfazed. I bend down with my legs parted and grab my panties to slip on. I slowly slide the red laced thong up my legs, placing them perfectly at my hip. 

I can sense his gaping eyes but I ignore them. I slip into a revealing, figure fitting, gown and zip it up. I turn around slowly and as I suspected he was watching the entire time. "I don't want to be one of your toys no matter my status." I command to him, making myself sound vulnerable. He sits upright in the bed and motions for me to come to me. "You are not a toy Adira Halsing. You are the love of my life." He grabs my hand and pulls me onto the bed, positioning me on his lap. I stare into his devilishly consuming emerald eyes. 

He starts to kiss me, I take this time to think out the next step of my plan. I need to lead him on some how. I start to innocently grind on him, making it seem like I'm oblivious of my actions but it is starting to affect him. I feel him, he's hard again but this time I push off of him and escape off the bed. "I don't want us to be..... I don't know what you think this is. A fling? A sex exchange? Whatever it is I'm done. I love you but I can't anymore if you don't see a future with us." I watch as he sighs sadly, his hand rubbing the back of his neck, disappointment settling in. 

"Silus, I don't know if you've thought his far ahead but I wanted to bear your children and sleep next to you every night and hold hands out in the gardens." I force tears, wiping them with my hands to exaggerate my words. "I guess I was being ridiculous because you weren't imaging a future with me." I look at my feet and clear my throat, breathing slowly and trying to stop the tears. He seems heart broken, his heart must be shattered to pieces, his heart physically starting to hurt and pain settling in. I'm happy that he feels this way, its what he deserves.

"Adira please." He begs. I don't make eye contact with him and I take off the sapphire necklace he gave to me as a promise. He gasps slightly as his eyes start to fill with tears. I place the necklace on the dresser and wipe away the last of my tears. "I love you Silus but I can't be your plaything anymore, I can't get hurt like this. I'll die of the pain if this continues. " I lift my gaze to him and his furrowed eyebrows study my expression. "Adira..." I cut him off, "Please Silus, stop. I'm sorry." I walk to him and kiss him one last time. 

He places his hand on my waist and my face. His kisses are passionate and full of desire. Our tears combine as I pull away. "You made me feel something Silus and I don't know fi I will ever feel anything like that again. You are my everything." He grips my waist tighter, his head hanging low. I lift his head gently with my cold hands and place my forehead on his. "Adira, You are my light. I cant live without you." I kiss his forehead as I say, "You are a king Silus, you need a queen that will give you power not freedom." 

I step slowly away from him and towards the door. "Adira wait!" I stop in my tracks and glance at him. "If I have to have a queen then I will. Adira I need you in my life so please, be my queen." Those words alone made me wet, finally the throne will be mine and I will have the power. Sure the money was nice and the kiss was sweet but the power tasted so much better.